Alyssa

And I've realized that guilty and that anxious side of me, like I've been working on really hard because not even for our marriage, for like friendships and for my kids, because I don't want my kids to be grown and be like, oh my God, mom's calling me again.

Like I'm going to put her on ignore.

So I just, I'm trying to do better.

He says he does, but he still is deep in his thoughts and he still doesn't believe that I'm willing to keep evolving.

I don't know.

And he would say, I don't know either.

Yes.

Because when he was trying to leave me that last time, I did not respect his boundaries when he came home because he wanted to sleep in the basement.

And I would stay upstairs with the kids where like our bedrooms were.

And I didn't respect his boundaries.

Like I would text him.

I'm like, can you please just come like sleep in our bed?

Like, can we play games?

Can we do this?

That like act like a couple.

And so he didn't feel like I respected his boundaries.

So that's why he feels like he had to get a rental to be like fully out.

Our therapist said the same thing.

Not even.

Our therapist says that to me.