Amanda Stern

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495 appearances 1 recordings 1 series first heard Mar 2020 last heard Mar 2020

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Like that was not my forte.

And so as soon as I started to be I I started to get tested, I would have a panic attack.

And I couldn't function and I couldn't answer the questions.

And so obviously I didn't do well on the IQ test.

Then I would get sent to a different IQ tester because my parents didn't like the results of the first IQ test.

Or you know, or the evaluator said we don't know.

So I would go to another IQ tester and get another IQ test.

And so it was very um

Confusing for me and

After a couple of evaluations and tests, I felt like

Oh, I understand.

What's wrong with me is that I'm stupid.

And so that is what I learned about myself from these tests when no one was communicating with me about why I was taking them.

And the fact that they weren't identifying or talking about my feelings made me feel like

Oh, I should be ashamed of this other thing that's inside of me that no one can see.

It's probably so embarrassing that no one wants to talk about it, or it's so rare that no one can even see it.

So it just sort of uh you know created

um this dichotomy in me where I felt like I was dumb and I had to hide that and I also had these weird worries that were embarrassing and shameful.

So I had to hide that.

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