Amber Bakker

I was shocked. Who in their right mind could let somebody like that, you know, have a retrial? It's kind of scary.

If he ever gets out, what will I do? What will my family do? He knows where we live.

I mean, I honestly think that he would come to our house. And, you know, I feel like I would be put in a harmful situation if he ever got out. He's a psychopath.

I always knew I was just going to, you know, give him peace of my mind. Pretty much put him in his place.

I have to see him before this retrial happens.

I was petrified.

Wow, I'm really doing this. I'm really about to meet my father face to face for the first time in like 14 years.

He had a grin on his face, like he had no emotion to him at all.

He had the nerve to tell me, please go to Christian counseling. By then I had heard enough from him. I basically let him know that when he does die and get that needle in his arm, I want to be there.

Honestly, when it comes down to it, I do think that he deserves it. You know what, Bob? I'll see you in court. Bye.

My mom wasn't there for my first date, my first kiss. And she won't be there for the birth of my kids.

The judge had said, it's going to be on your birthday. So I was like ready for it that day.

Which way is the thing supposed to go?

I'm very excited.

I mean, it was kind of mixed emotions. He is my dad, so it was like I was sad, but he deserved it at the same time. Amber Nicole Farah Hockham.

I just plan on getting my apartment with my friend next month and moving in and focusing on college after that.

I kept saying, where's my mom? You know, where's mom? When's she coming back? Amber. Amber. And people would have to just look at me brokenheartedly and tell me, you know, she's not. She's not coming back. She's gone forever.