Amoyea Hassan

so like that even allowed me to realize like even something like anxiety right like the whole dpdr thing it's like okay i have this thing that's going on with me um i hate it i hate the severe anxiety i hate feeling like this but i'm gonna boast in this situation i'm gonna boast in this thing because i know that is the lord that is going i need a savior like you said like i will be saved through this thing god is the one who has given me the strength to go through this thing every single day

so like that even allowed me to realize like even something like anxiety right like the whole dpdr thing it's like okay i have this thing that's going on with me um i hate it i hate the severe anxiety i hate feeling like this but i'm gonna boast in this situation i'm gonna boast in this thing because i know that is the lord that is going i need a savior like you said like i will be saved through this thing god is the one who has given me the strength to go through this thing every single day

You feel like you're in a video game basically.

You feel like you're in a video game basically.

That's literally how mine happened. It was so weird, though, because mine was like when I say it was so weird. The first time I experienced EPDR was in a high.

That's literally how mine happened. It was so weird, though, because mine was like when I say it was so weird. The first time I experienced EPDR was in a high.

Was it called 420? Oh, yeah, it was 420. Yeah, that's the first time I had an edible. And ever since then, you know, be careful about who you hang with and who you chill with because these people, like, the enemy will send people into your life and they will plant seeds. And weed was introduced to me through a guy.

Was it called 420? Oh, yeah, it was 420. Yeah, that's the first time I had an edible. And ever since then, you know, be careful about who you hang with and who you chill with because these people, like, the enemy will send people into your life and they will plant seeds. And weed was introduced to me through a guy.

And I began to become basically addicted to it to the point I had a very, very, very, very embarrassing situation. I was a senior in high school. I got so high. I was stressed out at that time. And the funny thing, what I was stressed out about senior year was the fact that I started missing my father. That's another situation. Yeah. But that's another topic.

And I began to become basically addicted to it to the point I had a very, very, very, very embarrassing situation. I was a senior in high school. I got so high. I was stressed out at that time. And the funny thing, what I was stressed out about senior year was the fact that I started missing my father. That's another situation. Yeah. But that's another topic.

But yeah, my father died when I was three years old. So like when I got to high school, it was so weird. I felt like for the first time I started filling the void of being fatherless.

But yeah, my father died when I was three years old. So like when I got to high school, it was so weird. I felt like for the first time I started filling the void of being fatherless.

and i started searching for um that love of a father and all the wrong things whether that be men whether that be drugs and um weed was that one thing at the time um for my senior year and yeah i had that oh my gosh like literally i got so high in the back of my classroom remember i had a substitute teacher and i started doing jumping jacks and i passed out boom

and i started searching for um that love of a father and all the wrong things whether that be men whether that be drugs and um weed was that one thing at the time um for my senior year and yeah i had that oh my gosh like literally i got so high in the back of my classroom remember i had a substitute teacher and i started doing jumping jacks and i passed out boom

Because I was so high, I kept fainting. Like, many, like, flashes. And I got to the front of the room and I started doing jumping jacks to, like, gain my speed back. Because I'm like, okay, no, nothing's wrong with me. You know, you try to convince yourself. And I did jumping jacks and boom, I passed out. The ambulance had to come to the school. It was a lot. It was really, really bad.

Because I was so high, I kept fainting. Like, many, like, flashes. And I got to the front of the room and I started doing jumping jacks to, like, gain my speed back. Because I'm like, okay, no, nothing's wrong with me. You know, you try to convince yourself. And I did jumping jacks and boom, I passed out. The ambulance had to come to the school. It was a lot. It was really, really bad.

So that was the first time that I experienced a DPDR. And me being a dummy, I continued to smoke, thinking that, OK, like, you know, it was just a little bad high. And every time I smoked, it just got worse and worse and worse. And I took a break. I stopped. Actually, I told myself I'm actually not going to do this thing anymore. And I think it was like 2014. Yeah, 2019, I was working at Zara.

So that was the first time that I experienced a DPDR. And me being a dummy, I continued to smoke, thinking that, OK, like, you know, it was just a little bad high. And every time I smoked, it just got worse and worse and worse. And I took a break. I stopped. Actually, I told myself I'm actually not going to do this thing anymore. And I think it was like 2014. Yeah, 2019, I was working at Zara.

I had my first job and I caught it behind the register. Mind you, I'm experiencing DPDR now and I'm not high. So it was like a panic attack. And it was a panic attack that I just caught out of nowhere. This guy just asked me for something behind the register. And I... I literally did not know what to say to him. Like my tongue went numb and everything. And after that day, I was never the same.

I had my first job and I caught it behind the register. Mind you, I'm experiencing DPDR now and I'm not high. So it was like a panic attack. And it was a panic attack that I just caught out of nowhere. This guy just asked me for something behind the register. And I... I literally did not know what to say to him. Like my tongue went numb and everything. And after that day, I was never the same.