Andrea Gunning

Plus, she didn't even know if she'd really seen anything.

She wasn't going to let that get in the way of getting married.

And maybe her gut feeling was just her nerves.

The wedding day was beautiful, but it also came with a lot of difficulty.

On what should have been the happiest day of her life, Saskia was falling apart.

She felt like she had to take medication just to remain stable.

It sucks when you feel like you just have to get through your wedding.

I don't think I was ever present in any of those moments because I was struggling so bad.

I was just trying to like get through to happier times because I thought that I should be happy.

It didn't make sense.

She had a great job, great kids, and now a great husband.

And I didn't understand it because I'm like, I have this guy who's so in love with me and has my back, but yet I feel so much pressure to hold it together.

After the wedding, she thought she'd feel some relief.

But the more she held on, the sicker she got.

And now it wasn't only her mental health that was taking a hit.

She was physically ill too.

I just felt paralyzed.

We asked her to describe what that was like in her body.

You can't open your eyes fully.

You can't wake up.