Andrea Gunning

I don't think I was ever present in any of those moments because I was struggling so bad.

I was just trying to like get through to happier times because I thought that I should be happy.

It didn't make sense.

She had a great job, great kids, and now a great husband.

And I didn't understand it because I'm like, I have this guy who's so in love with me and has my back, but yet I feel so much pressure to hold it together.

After the wedding, she thought she'd feel some relief.

But the more she held on, the sicker she got.

And now it wasn't only her mental health that was taking a hit.

She was physically ill too.

I just felt paralyzed.

We asked her to describe what that was like in her body.

You can't open your eyes fully.

You can't wake up.

And if you do try to get up, you're going to pass out.

I remember getting out of bed and I went in the shower.

I kind of felt like I was underwater or something.

I felt such a heaviness.

You know, you see dots, started to feel dots, and I sat down with the shower still on and, like, reached up, pushed the shower off, crawled back to my bed.

I mean, I must have slept for another six hours or something.

She had that same feeling the morning of her kids' picture day.