Andrea Gunning

Saskia took a moment downstairs to eat and take her nighttime meds.

Which I always did so that I could sleep through the night.

Then she went up to their room.

Mike was already in bed.

He was facing his nightstand and I wasn't sure if he was sleeping or not.

So I like went and put my arm around him and we started making out.

And I remember him telling me that he was going to use the bathroom and to hold on.

A lot of time passed and I'm sitting there thinking, what is going on?

And then I guess I fell asleep.

Next thing I remember, I kind of opened my eyes and looked up and I saw him laying like opposite from me.

Her eyes fluttered open.

She didn't know how much time had passed.

But Mike was awake.

He was lying with his head at the end of the bed.

He wasn't looking at Saskia.

He was on his laptop.

The open screen was facing me.

I saw what looked like a mostly naked back and butt with some light blue underpants on.

But just as quickly as she opened her eyes, she was getting sucked back into the darkness.

The drugs, the alcohol rushed in like a riptide, pulling her back into the depths.