Angela Giarratana

I eventually told him that it's okay to meet once, and as I know her, I got acquainted with her 15 years ago, she's a sweet girl, and she knows me, he can tell that we are happily married so that there's no possibility that this girl thinks it's a date or something.

But as I went to sleep, I started to analyze and overthink everything.

I realized I would think a hundred times before writing to my former crush, let alone ask him to meet me.

I realized I would be okay if it was any other girl, including ones that had a crush on him, but not the person that he was in love with for three long years and he was telling me about with sparkles in his eyes when we were young and just friends.

I couldn't sleep the whole night, imagining all that could go wrong from one meetup and breaching realities.

My afterthought that stayed was, why would he want to stir things up when they are the most quiet, even if he doesn't have feelings now?

Mm-hmm.

It's possible that the spark is reignited, right?

Why?

I told him my thoughts in the morning after a completely sleepless night.

He got immediately so mad.

You don't say.

Only for that I could not sleep because of a tiny irrelevant matter that I sacrificed my health for things that didn't yet and wouldn't happen.

He started yelling that I don't trust him and that my overthinking is a big problem and I should not decide who he wants to meet and text.

I said I should when it affects me and our relationship.

He said that if so, he will from now on refuse to let me meet any of my guy friends to show me how controlling my behavior feels.

On my remark that I had not been in deep love for three years with any of them, he said, quote, Jesus, it was 15 fucking years ago.

Anyways, we had a big fight with tears and all.

His last remark was, quote, you became the woman.

I was happy you weren't.