Angela Giarratana

I want to know what you think about it.

I initially was shocked, then slowly was coming into terms with that when he says, quote, you trust me, right?

I gave too much to build all of this with you, and I really value it too much to lose it because of something like this.

So it's just a catch-up meeting.

And, one, if I realize I feel something, I will immediately stop any communication after that.

And, on the other hand, two, if I realize she's a great person and I don't feel anything about her, I may stay friends with her because I also want a new person to talk to.

Like, you have all of these guys you talk to.

Just to mention, every guy I generally talk to, not on a daily basis, is either his friend, my married co-workers, or just old friends from former jobs or college who I have never had a crush on or had been pursued by.

I eventually told him that it's okay to meet once, and as I know her, I got acquainted with her 15 years ago, she's a sweet girl, and she knows me, he can tell that we are happily married so that there's no possibility that this girl thinks it's a date or something.

But as I went to sleep, I started to analyze and overthink everything.

I realized I would think a hundred times before writing to my former crush, let alone ask him to meet me.

I realized I would be okay if it was any other girl, including ones that had a crush on him, but not the person that he was in love with for three long years and he was telling me about with sparkles in his eyes when we were young and just friends.

I couldn't sleep the whole night, imagining all that could go wrong from one meetup and breaching realities.

My afterthought that stayed was, why would he want to stir things up when they are the most quiet, even if he doesn't have feelings now?

Mm-hmm.

It's possible that the spark is reignited, right?

Why?

I told him my thoughts in the morning after a completely sleepless night.

He got immediately so mad.

You don't say.