Ari

Yeah.

Yeah.

And I think for me, it's like, I'm the youngest for my biological parents and I have siblings with my mother.

So it's like, what about me?

And either one of the scenarios.

And I think that's the place that I have to do the most healing from now.

I think I've

accepted everything could be what it is and i've accepted that i am who i am now because of everything that's happened but in the back of my mind i can't help but feel what about me

My biological mother is all over Facebook has her kids are doing great grandkids.

Everything is fine.

She, I feel like as I've grown, I've wanted to explore that more, but growing up,

She was the abuser.

That is something I do know.

But it's also like, what was the real story?

What all happened?

What all transpired?

Because I just don't... Before my biological grandmother, so my father's mother, passed away, she would always ask me if I've talked to my mother.

And she would always be referring to Victoria.

Would never refer to my adopted mother as my mother and did not care to.

And for me, that's telling.