Ariana Madix

And I honestly, a lot of it felt numb in a way because it felt like as angry as I was, it was almost difficult to connect to.

Once you go angry, it's very hard to like come back from that.

Totally.

And yeah, that's where I was, I think.

No, literally, I was like, I'm not looking at either of them.

I will communicate to Andy or to Lisa if I have to look in that way.

Otherwise, I will speak to the emptiness.

the south stage was that like literally that was me like i was like i'm not looking at either of them and then eventually a couple times i did but i mean that was you were like was that your main thought going into it yeah it was just like i will not speak to them i will speak like i will answer right but i'm not but we're not gonna you don't deserve my i get it um did you feel like you were able to get closure from the reunion

Yeah, I honestly felt like I had closure before that, before the reunion.

And then at the reunion, I mean, I said what I felt like saying in the moment, but I honestly felt as though everything that happened.

I think I even said it but it didn't make it to air but I was just like this happening I mean you made it really easy for me to just not give a shit about you.

like breakups are hard you miss the person you know you think what could i have done what could they have done are we gonna get back together you know you have all these things right when you go through a breakup but when something like this happens you're like bye like there's literally nothing about that person right even if i missed him like in the first few days like even that feeling of missing him

That's not who whoever that is is not that person.

He slammed that door shut.

And I almost think that that was why the elaborate plan was what it was is because then I would want to get back together, right?

Of course.

Or I'd be sad or I would be, you know, struggling.

No.

I think it was the way that he weaponized any struggle I've ever had with my mental health.

That, to me, was like the most hurtful.