Ariana Madix

And this whole thing had me like I did not at that point, like that 48 hours, especially that night, that Wednesday night and that Thursday day, like and going to that conversation.

without having any other like witnesses or and also being in this position where it's like my partner of nine years and one of my best friends like I my sense of reality was gone like I just did not know like what was up and what was down at that point yeah you were very vocal this season about defending Tom and Raquel when people would come to you and you like had their backs

I think I would have believed it if it was told to me off camera.

Or if it was told to me, you know what I'm saying?

Because I think to some degree, a lot of what I felt was rumors and rumblings was...

which has happened before people being like, okay, I heard a little something about something, but I'm going to bring it up because that's our job is, you know, we bring up everything that we hear about.

And a lot of times it's nothing.

And I was like, well, if it's nothing, I'm not going to have like my friend and my boyfriend be like dragged through the mud.

Right.

Or would have.

Yeah, it would have been a friend who's like, I'm going to end up bringing this up on camera.

But I need to tell you.

But I need to tell you first because I think it's actually real.

And I think that that's something that like my close friends would have done.

OK, so I got it.

Yeah.

I just thought he was so earnest in everything that he did.

And I found it really like endearing that he would be over the top in making a cocktail or over the top in just everyday parts of life.

Like I thought it very endearing and sweet almost.

And I also thought he was a really good friend to the people close to him.