Ariana Madix

And I thought that that was a really good quality.

tom to someone i would have described it as like we used to call each other like apocalypse buddies you know like the person that all shit goes to hell and this is a person that you can rely on that you want with you who's going to continue to like make you laugh and get through all of what life has to throw at you and like honestly even right up until me finding out about this affair like even during while the affair was going on

We were still like laughing together, you know, having like our little, we had so many like little inside jokes and things like that.

And I mean, if you were to go through like either of our camera rolls, you would see just like so many, even during the affair, amazing, fun memories together.

I mean in the beginning I was definitely struggling with I was very excited that someone was like really I thought really into me because the relationship I was in previously that sex life was fine but the same time I was being like criticized very heavily about my body my personality just everything.

Um, and so I was like, oh my gosh, this is someone who's like really into me.

And so that was very exciting.

And I think that our sex life waxed and waned at different points.

I definitely think that, you know, got to a point sometimes where, you know, I just wanted that quality time so bad.

And I just think that in my mind, I thought, well, if we get through, um,

It felt like he would complain about frequency of sex.

And it felt like he wanted to have sex.

But I was like, but do you want to have sex with me?

Is it about me or is it just about the act?

And that's where I was like, OK, so but what is it about?

He wasn't really great with like the words of, you know, like descriptors.

I would like be specific.

Like, what do you like?

You know, like what do you like about me?

Yeah.