Ariana Madix

Like I need to know those like I want to know those things or I would be like,

okay, well, do you like, you know, people have said that they think I have a nice ass.

I don't know if I agree with that, but do you agree with that?

Do you?

And he would like be very turned off by the idea of me like being like, can you, do you like,

Like that part of me or like what are the you know right and I think that it wasn't coming necessarily from a place of like he didn't like my body I just don't think he knew how to express or maybe that's just a disconnect there and like yeah love languages or how to like.

I mean, I think in the past I would have been inclined to do that.

But because I had been in therapy for years at that point, I knew.

And couples therapy with him, by the way.

And the couples therapist literally sat across from both of us and said, this is a him problem.

This isn't a you problem.

you know there's certain things I have to take accountability for in the relationship but when it came to stuff like that it's like no this is something that he's going through that he's dealing with and don't take that on yourself like just please don't because it is my inclination to be like I'm not enough you know we all have that lie that whatever the big lie is that we all tell ourselves mine is the not enough lie and the therapist was like please don't do that right this actually has nothing to do with you yeah

I think in the beginning it was like you know he likes to go out a lot.

And I thought that that was just like the phase of life that we were in.

And I would have thought that nine years later we would be in a different phase.

I think I'm in a different phase of my life.

I still like to go out and have fun.

I go to festivals.

I party.

I have a good time.