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And then the other 50% is like, I probably wasn't exactly like him, but I filled in the gaps of the bits that I wasn't like.

I made myself like him.

Yeah.

Yeah, I do.

I think this is where I'm not like we'll disagree because I'm sure you don't necessarily have an opinion on it.

But I think love comes in all different shapes and sizes and formats.

And one thing I will always say about my old man, not just me and my brother, all of his kids, even the ones that maybe he hasn't been allowed to see or like has less of a relationship with because they're not on it or whatever.

He fucking loves his kids.

And he is...

a problematic person with his own shit going on.

But I don't believe... Like, the same way I have been problematic and hurt people or whatever...

that doesn't mean that I didn't love that person.

Do you know what I'm saying?

It's like, I just, because of whatever I had going on, I had pretty shitty ways of showing it sometimes.

Or like, I wasn't showing it sometimes, but it didn't mean that I didn't hold that in my heart.

And this is why I don't hold anything in bad regard, for better or for worse.

It's like, that version of myself that I developed is RD.

Like, that...

loud in front of a bunch of characters that I've never met and owning the room and walking into places and like I own the place and like I always had it in me

And I believe, like I was told, you know, you're so much like your dad and blah, blah, blah from that character before I met him.