Ashley

Because, um,

I mean, he was my best friend.

I mean, we were together for seven years, engaged for a year and a half.

And I don't know, I just can't, I don't know, I can't imagine like, you know, meeting someone else.

I know, but like trying to like build a life with someone else because the life that we had built was like everything that I could have wanted.

I just didn't see it in the time.

That's the thing.

I just, I don't know.

I know that's my worry too, and I don't want it to happen again.

And that's why I'm taking the steps to try and figure out why I did what I did.

And I just started therapy last week.

No, but I want to trust me.

Like I want to be a better person.

So how do I do that?

I don't know.

It was just, I guess, seeking, you know, validation elsewhere that made me feel good.

And then once I started to get it, it was just.

I guess there was just, you know, I don't know.

No relationship is perfect and no person is going to be like your perfect person.

But there was just like things that I felt were lacking.