Avi Wisnia

You know, like when you do a physical activity or you're at work all day or you go on a hike, it takes energy out of you and it feels like when you are grieving...

You are just sapped of energy, even if you're not doing anything.

And she said, you know, if you need to cancel, like, that's okay.

And I woke up that morning, and I just, I felt like I couldn't do it.

I just called her and I said, can you just call them and make sure it's taken care of?

Like, I didn't want to leave them an alert, but I can't have that conversation.

And it's just the relief I felt after knowing that I could lean on somebody in that way.

And I remember talking with him after the surgery, and I asked him,

So what, like, happened to that part of your brain where, like, the tumor was?

Does it just, like, fill back in?

And he said, no, there's just, like, a hole there.

And then he died.

I realized, like, wow, there's this hole in my heart.

That will never be filled in.

And it will always be there.

And I'm just going to have to walk through life with this hole in my heart and figure out how to function with it.