Awhina

I'm affectionate.

But I will be very honest.

I didn't think Adrian deserved me within the experiment.

That's how I was able to kind of leave that experience with kind of my head held high going, I deserved better.

But I knew better during the experiment.

It was just scary.

It was really hard.

And I felt like I was made to feel like I was letting people down if I was leaving.

If I left, I let people down.

There was so much layers.

to that but i left going you know what we can still be friends we did this experience together there is a care there and there are feelings but those feelings never progressed past surface level you're watching me cry and break down not because i've got these deep feelings for adrian you're watching me cry and break down because how i'm being treated as a human like

even as a friend treating someone the way I was getting treated sometimes, it's heartbreaking.

You're going to cry.

If you're doing all these things as someone and you're being kind and you're being intimate, you expect some level of respect and just some, like, decency.

And I was consistently blindsided by Adrianne.

Try living it.

That friends and family went for like five minutes.

Not even.

Like I was already nervous about seeing them.

Adrian and I obviously off the back of a tough week where he won't stay and I decided to leave.