Awhina

We were never intimate again after that last dinner party ever again.

But I almost felt like if we stayed together, they're going to show us better moments and not the worse moments that I saw.

Still in those last moments, I was still trying to protect him.

I'll still be I'll be very honest like at that point I kept our communication channel open for him not for me because I knew how hard it would be for him watching it play out and not because he's getting a smack to the face with reality I knew it'd be hard for him because the backlash he would receive because he perceived himself as this big amazing guy and he kept vilifying me at any turn and I knew the reality would smack him in the face

And again, silly me, I wanted to be like, hey, are you okay?

And at Valentine's Day was a time where 100% of the audience didn't like Adrian and 100% of the audience were in support of me.

So if I was seen with Adrian, Adrian, even if I could just take 10% of that heat away from him and then add that 10% towards me, I could handle that.

And now we've blocked.

What's changed is, again, like the experiment, I kept offering this man lifelines.

And it was always, you know, he would receive that lifeline, happy, get what he wants from me.

And then a couple days later, take out his frustrations on me.

I'm not your partner anymore.

I'm barely your friend at this moment.

I'm trying to establish boundaries and you were just knocking them over.

I don't have to tolerate that.

Yeah, when the media slams him, when something happens on, you know, the show that he doesn't agree with, I'm always his outlet.

It's like, this is your fault.

You've done this.

You've done that.

There's never any accountability.