Ben Terris
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Today, Explained
Is John Fetterman ok?
Whether he's a friend of mine or a source I just met, as a journalist, my job is never to just hear one side of a story and then run with it. And so I talked to so many people for this story, so many people who don't even appear in the story. And so Adam can be the kind of catalyst to send me off on an investigation.
Today, Explained
Is John Fetterman ok?
But if I found out that Adam was wrong, if I found out that nobody believed what Adam believed, then that would have all made it into the story. My number one goal when being a journalist is to tell a true story. And to do that, you have to talk to just so many people and you have to go through so much documentation. I'm relying on text messages. I'm relying on firsthand accounts.
Today, Explained
Is John Fetterman ok?
I'm relying on emails. I'm relying on you know, stuff I learned from the doctors and from, you know, documentation from the hospital. To call it like a one source story, which is kind of where Fetterman has landed, is just completely ridiculous, honestly. And I encourage people to read the story so they can see how much sourcing is actually there.
Today, Explained
Is John Fetterman ok?
Everyone's got their own experience, right? And everybody sees things through their own eyes. And so no, not everybody had the same exact experience. And what I worked really hard to do was try to include as many experiences as I can to paint as complicated and nuanced a story as this one deserves.
Today, Explained
Is John Fetterman ok?
You know, one of the things that people talk about working for John Fetterman is that he sees a lot of things in black and white, that that's kind of how he goes about doing the job. You know, there's good and bad, and there's, you know, good and evil, and there's, you know, it's a black and white world. I don't see things in black and white, and I don't see his story in black and white.
Today, Explained
Is John Fetterman ok?
This is a story filled with lots of gray area, and the only way to fully capture that is to try to get as many, you know, perspectives as possible.
Today, Explained
Is John Fetterman ok?
People with various views on politics, you know, wrote to me to say that they were worried about him as a person. There were people who felt like this was a hit piece because he has become a controversial figure in democratic politics. And they believe that this is just a story to try to take him off the democratic team because he's no longer a team player. Certainly not my intention.
Today, Explained
Is John Fetterman ok?
My intention was just, like I said, write a true story about a difficult subject. And there were people who kind of came down in between. And so... I'd say the real response to this is it's gotten a lot of people talking. What would it mean for the Democrats if they lost John Fetterman? He has said that he is committed to finishing out his term.
Today, Explained
Is John Fetterman ok?
He has a difficult moment at a retreat for Democrats at the Library of Congress. He's supposed to be the talk of the town and everybody wants to talk to him and get to know him, but he's sitting quietly in a corner drinking Coke and not talking to anybody. Staff gets an alert a short time later from somebody who saw him walking in the street, almost into traffic, almost getting hit by a car.
Today, Explained
Is John Fetterman ok?
There doesn't seem to be a lot of movement from Democratic leadership to push him out. Why would they? I mean, he's, you know, he's one of theirs. And Republicans aren't pushing him out because, A, they don't believe in cancel culture. And, you know, there's that. And also Fetterman is sort of a Democratic figure that has become popular on the right side.
Today, Explained
Is John Fetterman ok?
He has a regular fixture on Fox, and Republicans have actually come to his defense, you know, in some ways even more vociferously than Democrats. So I'm not so sure they will be losing him. But if they were to, you know, it could leave kind of a vacuum in the Democratic Party for that type of Democrat, the type of kind of heterodox Democrat who's willing to punch left,
Today, Explained
Is John Fetterman ok?
who may lose a lot of support from the base, but may find a new audience who could become Democratic, the kind of Democratic senator who can go on Joe Rogan and chop it up with him, or who can appeal to these kind of rundown, Braddock-like towns all across America. I mean, he does have a kind of appeal that a lot of Democrats lack.
Today, Explained
Is John Fetterman ok?
Yeah, so this was some great reporting by the Associated Press. And what they found is that the day before my story came out in New York Magazine, Fetterman was having a meeting with Teachers Union, and it very quickly kind of went off the rails. And what they reported is that he slammed his hands down on the desk and would say things like, why is everybody mad at me? Why is everybody mad at me?
Today, Explained
Is John Fetterman ok?
Why does everybody hate me? and got kind of repetitive, and the meeting had to be ended quickly, and a member of Fetterman's staff started crying afterwards and was comforted by the teachers' union. You know, it's just another example of kind of a difficult moment in his office.
Today, Explained
Is John Fetterman ok?
I would not be surprised if there were more and more stories like this. The Philadelphia Inquirer had a piece about how staff is worried that he's not up for the job. There's been a piece in Politico about how he... doesn't have a lot of allies in the Democratic Party, so he's kind of on an island of his own making.
Today, Explained
Is John Fetterman ok?
A lot of politicians have been able to withstand difficult news cycles, knowing that eventually everybody's attention is going to go elsewhere. And in American politics today, people's attention is going all over the map, all over the place, all the time.
Today, Explained
Is John Fetterman ok?
And they rush to find him. They find him wandering around Capitol Hill, and they bring him to George Washington, where they decide that he is severely dehydrated, not having another stroke, which was the big worry. And they prescribe him with medication for depression. And they think, OK, maybe he's going to be on the right track here.
Today, Explained
Is John Fetterman ok?
But a week later, he is having a meeting with Senator Sherrod Brown. These are two guys who should get along great, you know, a couple of purple state Democrats who I think I write in the piece are more comfortable in union halls than in the halls of Congress. Like these are kind of working man type senators. At least that's how they present themselves. But the meeting is very weird.
Today, Explained
Is John Fetterman ok?
And Fetterman is drawn into himself. He's speaking so quietly that hardly anybody can hear him. The meeting kind of ends uncomfortably and staff notices that Fetterman is now starting to walk in what one person describes as figure eights out in the hallway, kind of looking over his shoulder as if he's being followed by some sort of shadowy figure.
Today, Explained
Is John Fetterman ok?
And that's when they call a doctor and they all decide this is time to get him to Walter Reed. This is serious.
Today, Explained
Is John Fetterman ok?
Now, Walter Reed is really tough. He gets there and he's experiencing these kind of delusions early on while he's there. If he takes a bed at the hospital, he might get arrested. He tells doctors that he thinks his family is wearing a wire.
Today, Explained
Is John Fetterman ok?
He has this belief all of a sudden that he has to break out of his room because there's a political rally happening in the lobby of Walter Reed and he has to get there. At this point, doctors are a little worried about what's going on. And over the course of his time at the hospital, they change his medication. His mental health struggles go into, quote, remission.
Today, Explained
Is John Fetterman ok?
He starts taking visitors, starts doing the job from there. And when he comes out, like, he's the best he's been in a really long time.
Today, Explained
Is John Fetterman ok?
How long does that last? He's in the hospital for six weeks. He gets out and for, I mean, look, the thing about mental health struggles is you can have good days and you can have bad days. You can have good weeks, you can have bad weeks. It's impossible to pinpoint exactly when things were good and bad because it could be good in the morning and bad in the afternoon.
Today, Explained
Is John Fetterman ok?
But staff I talked to said the first months that he's back are great. I mean, he's diving into the job. He's getting a lot of rightful credit for the work he's doing with mental health.
Today, Explained
Is John Fetterman ok?
I mean, honestly, people believe, and it makes sense to me, that he could have saved lives, right? When somebody like him, A, a politician who's at the top of his career, a high-functioning type A type job, can admit that they're going through something, it gives permission for a lot of people to think, oh, maybe I'm going through something. Maybe I should reach out for help.
Today, Explained
Is John Fetterman ok?
The man who got a lot of credit, rightfully so, for bringing his mental health struggles to the fore, to kind of destigmatizing depression and mental health issues in politics, may be struggling more than he had let on.
Today, Explained
Is John Fetterman ok?
And so it's great for a while, but it's around that time that things in the office start to kind of go south.
Today, Explained
Is John Fetterman ok?
Yeah, I mean, it certainly is. He had talked about Israel in the past and said that he was a pro-Israel guy, which was a pretty standard democratic position for a very long time. But after October 7th, he makes it like his issue in a way that it never had been before.
Today, Explained
Is John Fetterman ok?
And I think it threw some people for a loop. Staff got upset. Former staff got upset. Also, as I report in the piece, his wife Giselle was very upset. One time coming into the office crying, saying that, you know, they're bombing refugee camps. How can you support this? He responds that that's all propaganda.
Today, Explained
Is John Fetterman ok?
And this kind of heightened tension that's happening in American politics as a whole, but especially in this office, I think just kind of derailed things for him and his staff in a way that made it very difficult to be working for him.
Today, Explained
Is John Fetterman ok?
Yeah, it felt exceptional. So when John Fetterman leaves Walter Reed, he's kind of given a bunch of things he has to do to stay on his recovery plan, right? Obviously, he has to stay on his medication. He needs to hydrate. He needs to get exercise. The doctors also say you should probably stay off social media.
Today, Explained
Is John Fetterman ok?
Fetterman himself has said in interviews that social media was an accelerant for his depression. And I think that this moment, as he becomes kind of a top talker on Israel and Palestine, is drawing him back into social media. There's one really kind of key moment early on where he puts up a tweet.
Today, Explained
Is John Fetterman ok?
And I mean, it's a complicated backstory, but it's basically like he was upset that there were protesters that were protesting hummus that was made in Israel, but in his mind, were not concerned enough with the sexual assault that was happening on Israelis by Hamas. And he puts up a tweet with Drake kind of, you know, that somehow is supposed to be indicative of this.
Today, Explained
Is John Fetterman ok?
And the staff kind of freaks out because it feels very offensive. It feels like it's making light of sexual assault. A bunch of women staffers in the office talk to senior staff trying to get it taken down. Fetterman holds his ground for a long time and he says anybody who doesn't like this tweet is welcome to quit. Eventually he does take it down.
Today, Explained
Is John Fetterman ok?
But this kind of roiling of the staff, this wading into very difficult conversations via meme, it just feels like the office is like – it doesn't handle it very well.
Today, Explained
Is John Fetterman ok?
Yeah, so nobody I spoke to for this story would say that every single issue that they have with John Fetterman is because of his mental health issues. They would not say every single position that he's taking and the way that he's talking about them is because of his mental health struggles. But the issue that they have is it became harder and harder to tell which which was, right?
Today, Explained
Is John Fetterman ok?
It was harder and harder to tell which was something that John Fetterman was speaking out about because he was going through a hard time and which were issues that he just believed in his core and always has been. And also, it's about how he spoke about these issues, right? It's one thing for John Fetterman to be pro-Israel. Lots of Democrats are pro-Israel. Chuck Schumer is pro-Israel.
Today, Explained
Is John Fetterman ok?
But what a lot of staffers told me is the way that he started talking about Israel, the way that he would put himself into these fights and would be on social media and almost seemed to kind of relish being him against the world. Somebody in a text I saw said that John Fetterman against the world is his comfortable place.
Today, Explained
Is John Fetterman ok?
That kind of mentality just started to feel untenable and felt like this is not just an issue of us having a difference of policy beliefs. It's about us worrying that he's taking things too far.
Today, Explained
Is John Fetterman ok?
When I get there, at first, it's great. You know, Fetterman and I have this history. When I reported on him back in 2018, he told me that I was one of the few reporters who really got him at the time. And so he was excited to talk to me. And I was excited to talk to him. I mean, he's an interesting guy.
Today, Explained
Is John Fetterman ok?
And so at first, before getting into kind of the difficult parts of my reporting, I wanted to just give him the opportunity to talk about things, to talk about his place in the Democratic Party, about what it was like for him to go visit Mar-a-Lago to meet with Donald Trump. to talk about what Democrats were getting right and getting wrong. And he was kind of the old Fetterman in a way, right?
Today, Explained
Is John Fetterman ok?
I mean, he still struggles with his auditory processing. He still kind of struggles with getting sentences out exactly how he wants them to, but it's a lot better than it used to be. And he was, you know, very lucid and very excited to talk through all this stuff. And it went well. You know, as we're talking... I'm the kind of reporter who doesn't want to hide the ball for too long, right?
Today, Explained
Is John Fetterman ok?
Like, I wanted to make sure he had the opportunity to talk about things before it got contentious, and I knew it might get contentious. And so I kind of ease into talking about health stuff. The day before sitting down with him, he had written a piece for the New York Times about taking the weight loss drug Manjaro. And he writes in that piece that he was feeling better than he'd ever felt before.
Today, Explained
Is John Fetterman ok?
You know, his mind was crisper and clearer than ever before. And he never felt better. And so I kind of use that as a gateway to talk about medication and about health issues. And I start by saying, listen, I understand that mental health struggles are a lifelong struggle. There's going to be ups and downs. Can you tell me about that?
Today, Explained
Is John Fetterman ok?
And very quickly, he pushes back against even that idea that it's a lifelong struggle. He basically says, look, before the stroke, I wasn't depressed. I wasn't the guy who was joy, joy, joy, joy all the time. But, you know, it was kind of a freak thing that happened.
Today, Explained
Is John Fetterman ok?
A combination of the stroke, of the election, of exhaustion, all these things led to this one moment that made him go to Walter Reed. And after Walter Reed, he said that he's basically better. And that was a little surprising to me. I mean, you know, I've talked to a lot of people in my life in various capacities who've dealt with mental health issues. And, you know, it is a struggle.
Today, Explained
Is John Fetterman ok?
And you kind of expect a politician to talk about that instead of just saying, like, you know, it's a magical fix. So that was a little surprising. And I pushed him on it a little to say, well, listen... I've talked to a number of your staff members, mostly former, who are worried about you. They're worried that maybe you're not on your recovery plan like you should be.
Today, Explained
Is John Fetterman ok?
They're also worried that maybe you're not taking your medication and that the medication is serious and that you're on a bad path. Can you speak to that? And at that moment, the tenor of the conversation shifts kind of dramatically. I don't think he was really expecting that. And he denies it. He says it's all disgruntled staff who have a grudge.
Today, Explained
Is John Fetterman ok?
And he won't really answer kind of the central part of the question, which is, are you on your recovery plan? are you doing okay? It just becomes kind of a response to who are these people? These are people who are mad at me for my Israel-Palestine position, for example, or have other reasons to have a grudge. But there's basically no truth to what they're saying.
Today, Explained
Is John Fetterman ok?
I mean, you know, whistleblowers, and this is basically a whistleblower type story, always have some, you know, there's always a variety of reasons why people are willing to blow the whistle. It can be because they're genuinely worried about the person that they're blowing the whistle about, or they're genuinely worried about what will happen if they don't say anything.
Today, Explained
Is John Fetterman ok?
There's also political reasons to do it. There's also personal reasons. And so I think that, sure, Adam probably had lots of reasons why he was willing to speak out now when he wasn't willing to speak out before. But for me, I wasn't about to just take Adam at his word.