Billy Corgan

not one idealized thing yeah so i think i i have an idealized thing that's kind of what is that what is that i think it has something to do with my mother and i you know it has something well maybe mine does too the proving people wrong that that was the first person i had to prove wrong was my mom so right that's what i'm saying your site you're sort of speaking to somebody

not one idealized thing yeah so i think i i have an idealized thing that's kind of what is that what is that i think it has something to do with my mother and i you know it has something well maybe mine does too the proving people wrong that that was the first person i had to prove wrong was my mom so right that's what i'm saying your site you're sort of speaking to somebody

not one idealized thing yeah so i think i i have an idealized thing that's kind of what is that what is that i think it has something to do with my mother and i you know it has something well maybe mine does too the proving people wrong that that was the first person i had to prove wrong was my mom so right that's what i'm saying your site you're sort of speaking to somebody

Yeah, because part of my story is my mother was institutionalized when I was four. So my mother was in my life, but at a distance. So I had to create a kind of mental version of my mother that was or wasn't real that over time had to be amended.

Yeah, because part of my story is my mother was institutionalized when I was four. So my mother was in my life, but at a distance. So I had to create a kind of mental version of my mother that was or wasn't real that over time had to be amended.

Yeah, because part of my story is my mother was institutionalized when I was four. So my mother was in my life, but at a distance. So I had to create a kind of mental version of my mother that was or wasn't real that over time had to be amended.

So when that became a... You know, there's that old... I'm sure you've heard it like... little boys marry their mothers and little girls marry their fathers, that type of thing.

So when that became a... You know, there's that old... I'm sure you've heard it like... little boys marry their mothers and little girls marry their fathers, that type of thing.

So when that became a... You know, there's that old... I'm sure you've heard it like... little boys marry their mothers and little girls marry their fathers, that type of thing.

But the notion is that if you have an idealized conception of, in this case, the mother, well, then when you go into adult life and you're trying to find a partner, and if that holds true that you're looking for your mother, well, you're looking for somebody that doesn't exist. Because I had to create an idealized version of my mother in my mind because the real person I couldn't

But the notion is that if you have an idealized conception of, in this case, the mother, well, then when you go into adult life and you're trying to find a partner, and if that holds true that you're looking for your mother, well, you're looking for somebody that doesn't exist. Because I had to create an idealized version of my mother in my mind because the real person I couldn't

But the notion is that if you have an idealized conception of, in this case, the mother, well, then when you go into adult life and you're trying to find a partner, and if that holds true that you're looking for your mother, well, you're looking for somebody that doesn't exist. Because I had to create an idealized version of my mother in my mind because the real person I couldn't

Oh, yeah. I was very close to my mother. And it's a very strange long story that I'd love to tell you if you want to hear it. But so I feel like I'm oftentimes writing to like a ghost.

Oh, yeah. I was very close to my mother. And it's a very strange long story that I'd love to tell you if you want to hear it. But so I feel like I'm oftentimes writing to like a ghost.

Oh, yeah. I was very close to my mother. And it's a very strange long story that I'd love to tell you if you want to hear it. But so I feel like I'm oftentimes writing to like a ghost.

And then by extension, and that's why I asked about California and growing up here, because by extension, I think, and I think this is a very similar to a lot of people grew up in the Midwest in basements and latchkey kids. Right. We're kind of talking about something that we were sort of promised, but we know it isn't real. But television created a fake.

And then by extension, and that's why I asked about California and growing up here, because by extension, I think, and I think this is a very similar to a lot of people grew up in the Midwest in basements and latchkey kids. Right. We're kind of talking about something that we were sort of promised, but we know it isn't real. But television created a fake.

And then by extension, and that's why I asked about California and growing up here, because by extension, I think, and I think this is a very similar to a lot of people grew up in the Midwest in basements and latchkey kids. Right. We're kind of talking about something that we were sort of promised, but we know it isn't real. But television created a fake.

Because there it was.

Because there it was.