Brandon Herrera

Yeah.

Every time something happened in my life that was hard for me, I didn't have the mental resilience to not let it make me go back to what I was doing.

Right, right.

So I would go throughout the year, something bad would happen, and then instead of just continuing to move forward, I would just fall back into my old ways.

There were a couple things.

My friendship with Danny went through a rough spot.

I got depressed, gained the weight back.

My dog died.

You know, that was one of my closest companions for 14 years.

She ate a mushroom and ate it.

Literally, just like out of the blue.

And it's so weird because when I was in those relapses, subconsciously, I knew what I was doing.

Like, I told Eli, like, I think I literally ordered pizza the day my dog died.

I just like it without skipping a beat.

I went straight back into that old fat man shit that I used to do.

I started doing really unhealthy shit again and I stopped weighing in.

Yeah.

So that's when I could tell internally like you're going down the wrong path.

It is absolutely an addiction.

Yeah.