Brandon Herrera

I had to come to terms with that last year.

Because even with the social media stuff that's happened, those pages grew so fast.

And there's so many people watching the journey now.

But even with that determination and that amount of support that I have...

I still sometimes find myself struggling with like really dumb ass food stuff, like cravings or like wanting to eat stuff that I shouldn't and struggling to stay within a certain calorie count and stuff.

I started the pages for that purpose, but then I quickly realized for the sake of my mental health, using social media for accountability is,

is a horrible idea for me.

Cause I'll even, most of my comments are positive.

Like it's, it's a stark contrast from back when I was in the streaming space, you know, but even with that insane amount of positivity, my mind will find the negative and like focus on it.

So if I have a way in that didn't go as I expected or something, I'll see the negative and I'll just be like, really, it'll just be really bad.

So I've recently put people in place in my life to kind of act as like,

accountability for specific things.

I have a guy that I literally send MyFitnessPal screenshots to.

It's like, hey, this is what I had.

This is what my calories are.

So I have the accountability, but I don't feel like I don't like to use the social media as that because that just wrecked my mental.

but it happens i'm glad you found that accountability is anyone else in friends or family do they ever be like hey what are you doing uh like when i'm when i'm doing something bad i think yeah i think so but i've i've been pretty dialed in lately like because i do it's actually it's kind of weird man like i had a lot of times last year where i struggled right but then even

When I'm having these periods where I'm not going off course and I'm staying on track, I have like residual guilt from the days that I did that makes it so I have a hard time even like being happy that I did the right thing because I'll still feel bad about having done wrong in the past.

I know that doesn't make sense, but it's also kind of stupid.

Oh, this has changed a lot.