Buck Rogers
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259 appearances
1 recordings
1 series
first heard May 2025
last heard May 2025
Buck Rogers’s voice in public audio — every appearance, attributed to the second.
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It's getting increasingly harder for me.
And I think for so many reasons, I feel overwhelming. Yeah. And I'm just tracking that.
That it's starting to feel really tough. I'm glad I go home. I go home. I've gone home the last couple of years. And it's nice to be with my mom. And I know it makes them very happy. So I like doing that. But there is something about... Being there, that's hard. When I'm there, especially for moments, events, yearly events, the passage, like time starts to feel very oppressive.
The passage of time.
You know, we go to the same places and... You know, I'm going to this like mall that I went to when I was in high school and to see it be so much the same and also so different. It's just it feels it feels sad. It feels melancholic.
And and then seeing my parents age.
Is so hard.
Yes.
And I can kind of Buddhism. I know. Yeah. And when I'm not there, I can detach from it when I'm here.
Yes. And I think I can just compartmentalize in a way. Like they're there and that's happening, but I'm not seeing... Day to day, like the little things that are changing. So it's kind of hard to be there, even though I'm glad I make that decision. That's a little hard. And then I also know being here would be hard because all of my friends have kids.
And that is painful in its own way. And like, it just feels sort of like this day is hard.
I think it's both. I think it's. It's so tricky because it's not like on a day to day, I think, of the pain of not having children. But on that day, I am away. I'm just very aware that I don't.
And that it's not it wasn't. really a choice. It's just the way my life went, right?
Yeah. Unfolded in this way. I made decisions that took me in certain places. I, you know, I'm not married to my high school sweetheart. I didn't have one, you know, and yeah, I'm just like aware, like, oh, my life hasn't gone, didn't go that way.
And yes, I can still make decisions that might lead to that, but it's, Different. It's like really different now. Me having a kid now is a real choice. It is not like, oh, I fell in love with this person and then maybe we'll have kids. That's the next step. It's I have to make.
Let's do it. It's real, real hard decision making.
It kind of I don't. Yeah. And that's that's an annoying thing to have to think about.
So, yeah, I guess it was a hard day.
I don't know. Like it it it it makes me feel feel like, oh, I wish I had that. But does it make me feel like I'm going to take those steps to do it?
I know.
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