Candyce

I didn't think anything of it.

But as soon as Delilah passed, I went searching for her videos and she would talk about it openly.

And she's still going, which I think that's another thing.

Like, where do I go from all of this?

I live every day as the shell of a human with a gray cloud over me 24-7.

But I found it very helpful distracting myself.

I go to school, I go to work, and that keeps me busy until it doesn't.

I can't say that

Every single day, I'm not thinking about her and wanting to be with her.

I'm the most depressed I've ever been in my whole entire life.

But seeing that other women can push through and build on their grief and find their purpose in life and make...

their baby's proud.

It's been really inspiring and really helpful.

I also think that grief is such a huge emotion that it makes a lot of people uncomfortable and they don't want to hear it.

Which I shouldn't be shamed for posting about my daughter or speaking about her or making that a topic of discussion.

Right.

Like...

I want to keep her memory alive.

I will talk about her whenever I want to.

I think I have a really hard time sitting in it because I do get very –