Cara Delevingne

And like to his credit, like he kept our family together.

He could have left my mother.

Like to stay with someone who had struggled and had been through

And not that she ever wanted to hurt people, but she hurt everyone a lot.

And he stayed and he kept her together.

And that to me is pretty incredible.

I really, I loved it.

I've loved getting older in the sense of that resentment and that anger that you hold onto is just so poisoning.

It's just, it's honestly the worst.

Like you can do anything to yourself, but when you hold onto stuff like that, you just make, you get so sick.

Danger seeking behavior, for sure.

Because I also think at some point around the time of

the not eating, I also just started like throwing myself off stuff.

And like, I broke like, I don't know how many bones in like a year because I just started

I was in pain inside, but I didn't know how to express it.

So I just wanted to feel pain.

And it didn't consciously happen in that way in my head.

But I remember breaking my elbow straight through for the first time and going to the hospital and finding out it was broken and being like, yay, like I can finally have a cast and say like, ow, I'm hurting.

You know, it was like the first time I could like,

like feel like I deserve to stay out.