Cara Delevingne

on a beach in Brighton, freezing cold.

And I was like, oh, this is different.

This is really different.

These clothes are different.

This environment is different.

Like, you know, you're in the PVC plastic jacket that it is so cold that you're getting blood blisters down your arms, but it's fashion and you've got to make it look good.

And you're in high heels on a like pebbled beach and you're like...

whatever I'm gonna do, I'm going to make this look easy.

But that's what I'd done my whole life is go, I'm gonna make whatever pain this is, but I'm gonna make it.

Yeah, I'm gonna serve the cunt.

Yeah, I'm gonna make it look hot and I'm gonna make people wanna want it.

I think the thing that I found wonderful and I'll never not appreciate and love Christopher for this is that showing me that people, there was people that cared more about some other stuff and like,

to be able to be, I wouldn't have had a career without that and without him, because especially when one brand wants you, then everyone wants you and the whole thing happens and I was just like, but it also gave me a pretty fickle view and a bit of a chip on my shoulder of like, you all told me I was not good enough and you all made me feel like dog shit and now you all want me and that sucks.

But also,

you look where I am now bitch I did fucking like I loved it I enjoyed it I loved going to shows and everyone at that point being very like modeling is so important you know I don't know what accent it is but like just it being so serious and I was like

What are we all doing here?

Let's get crazy.

Let's put on my favorite shoes.

Let's put on Biggie Smalls and fucking go.

I loved shaking everything up because I was like, people taking my picture, I'm gonna do weird faces because I don't take this seriously and I don't feel pretty.