Cara Delevingne

We all had this thing.

that we knew, and now everyone, you know, they have wives or got, and you're like, that's just, it's just crazy at that time.

Because I couldn't love, I couldn't receive love.

And I don't think

I didn't love myself enough to have healthy sexual experimentation in the sense that I think I had my healthy fair share of sexual experimentation, but it was usually fueled by drugs, danger-seeking behavior, situations where I thought, oh, that's a fantasy I have, but I didn't really actually want that.

And I think that came into that thing of,

just wanting to feel something, even if it's bad and even if it's empty.

And yeah, and I also think it took, it took until all the Harvey stuff too, to really realize that I had been sexually abused and

I hate to use the word rape.

It just always makes me so sad.

But that kind of thing, and I'd put myself in those positions, but never admitted it or wanted to deal with it or made excuses for it.

It felt bad.

But that made so much sense with how I would just let people use me a lot, whether that be sexually or in any other way, because I felt like that's all I was good for sometimes.

So it was before.

It was still when everyone was doing these movies, bopping around.

You know, he had his wife who was, you know, in that industry.

You know, I've been to dinner with both of them with a bunch of people.

You know, he had a wife and kids.

He seemed safe, right?

And he got my number.