Cara Delevingne

And I was so close to ending my life.

Not, I mean, yeah, I was, music at that moment really saved me because a song came on on shuffle when I was alone in this hotel room.

And it was a song that played at a friend's funeral who died of an overdose.

And it was a really,

was like that's the thing when you're in that position where you can choose to try and end your life or not that it is such a quick flip and in that one moment i was like what am i doing why am i doing this i i can't believe that i am in this place and i threw all the drugs down the toilet and i um

So yeah, it had been a problem, but when you're successful and when you seem you're doing great, you have your hair and makeup done, it's kind of fine.

People make excuses.

People are making money.

You're paying for people's lives and jobs and kids.

You don't wanna stop.

You don't wanna say no.

Yes, but also I was good... If I say I was good at hiding it, people will be like, no, you weren't.

But if people thought it was bad what they saw, they didn't see half of it.

The damage was really being done alone.

Because that's where no one could stop me.

And also I was so good at...

flitting around different countries and different groups of friends.

If I haven't slept for three days, but then I see these group of friends and I'm still whatever, no one knows how long I haven't slept.

No one knows that I've been partying for this long.

It's, you can kind of.