Cara Delevingne

Instagram adverts, billboards, people talking about it.

I was like, what?

I mean, I knew it numbed me out, like 100%.

But like a lot of things, people don't realize the danger behind that because how badly are the things you're running away from and how badly when you numb them, they all come flooding back.

They don't go away.

They don't.

So that's when I think, when I bought the drugs to sell, I just did them all by myself.

Not all of them.

I sold half of them, did the rest.

So I basically did the drugs for free.

Wasn't a great drug dealer.

But I definitely...

I knew it was bad when I started doing them alone and how much I liked that and how much I knew that people weren't judging me and I didn't judge myself for it and I could disappear and that, I knew it was a problem and that was young.

But with work, it's not a problem because I'm working, I'm making money.

You know, it's,

you know, I would be in a state where I'd definitely be more fucked up than people, but I am going to work.

When you're 20s, you can kind of do that a little more.

But then my body just couldn't take it.

You know, I think I also, again, I think the kind of suicidal ideation came back around when I was at my height of fame.

when I should have been the most happy and I felt the most guilty and I felt the most, like I didn't deserve any of it.