Cara Delevingne

There was a lot of resentment I had towards my upbringing and growing up, but I also think because I pushed myself too hard and it took me a long time to get over it.

But I think their perception of how it was, especially for men and women, you know, my dad had three girls and his...

his ideal was for us to you know marry someone who would look after us and i was like that's never i never want to be looked after by anyone it's so interesting obviously generationally when they have like an idea for you and you're like trying to break away from it but it also feels like then you are abandoning what your parents want which means feeling like you're letting them down and i also don't think he thought it was possible for a woman to i don't know in the same sense that i'm sure he did but

I also just knew I was different too.

Like I knew I was a little queer kid running around.

Like I didn't feel like I belonged in my body, in my family, in any of it.

So I was like...

Yeah, anything you guys tell me, I'm not gonna listen to, which also is part of how I am in just terms of like rules.

I can't really handle them.

Unfortunately, my memory of a lot of it... My memory is my memory.

It's not fact.

I can remember what I can remember.

And...

Unfortunately, the way that I'm wired, my brain will tend to hold onto darker things and trauma than it does the nice parts, which I know they were there because there's videos of it.

And there are memories I have of it that I worked really hard to remember.

But I do... Yeah, I think I...

I don't know.

I don't feel like I had a voice as a kid in terms of, I mean, who does, I guess, at that age.

But I don't feel like I was going through a lot and I don't know what I was going through.

But there was a lot going on with my mom, who especially was very sick when I was growing up.