Carla Kaufman Sloan

And everybody was screaming and yelling.

And, of course, our neighbor came running over this big body builder to give him CPR because everybody else was hysterical.

But he just couldn't hold on to him because of the amount of electricity going through his body.

And so then they took him to the hospital.

You just know when you get the phone call.

Like our babysitter slash nanny on the other line just couldn't breathe or talk, and she just kind of wailed, called her name, and I knew.

So that's the day our lives change forever.

I still get emotional.

It does really inform how people handle grief.

And I had no beliefs.

I didn't believe in the afterlife.

I didn't know it.

I figured once you're dead, you're lost forever.

And it was so...

shocking and unbelievable that seven days after his seventh birthday, we were in the morgue.

So I just thought, I'm lost.

I can't get through this.

Yes, that was like a main focus.

That's actually what got me out of bed in the morning was Caleb and knowing that

He needed to be supported, and he needed to still go to school, and he needed to not live in this dark place that I was living in.