Carrie

Yes. He was. afraid something was going to happen. It's part of the reason why you and your sister weren't there anymore. I didn't want you in the house for my own reasons. Mick didn't want you in the house for his reasons. And those reasons were very valid reasons to not want you guys there.

Yes. He was. afraid something was going to happen. It's part of the reason why you and your sister weren't there anymore. I didn't want you in the house for my own reasons. Mick didn't want you in the house for his reasons. And those reasons were very valid reasons to not want you guys there.

It was clear that Mick was afraid of Tim, and I think that might be part of the reason why they never left for Cambridge. I don't think that Mick wanted to be alone with Tim.

It was clear that Mick was afraid of Tim, and I think that might be part of the reason why they never left for Cambridge. I don't think that Mick wanted to be alone with Tim.

Yes.

Yes.

Why would you write that?

Why would you write that?

I've gone back and forth, back and forth, back and forth. Did Mick shoot her? Didn't he shoot her? Did he? Didn't he? Over and over again. And I think my young naive self believed that he didn't because there was no way he could do that. The older I have gotten, the less naive I am, the wiser I am. And Tammy's words ring in my head all of the time. Mick sacrificed himself to save us.

I've gone back and forth, back and forth, back and forth. Did Mick shoot her? Didn't he shoot her? Did he? Didn't he? Over and over again. And I think my young naive self believed that he didn't because there was no way he could do that. The older I have gotten, the less naive I am, the wiser I am. And Tammy's words ring in my head all of the time. Mick sacrificed himself to save us.

He did what he had to do so that he felt like we were safe. That's the only way it makes sense to me, knowing Mick the way that we knew Mick.

He did what he had to do so that he felt like we were safe. That's the only way it makes sense to me, knowing Mick the way that we knew Mick.

I don't know. I don't know. He destroyed my life for a long time. Took away things I loved. Took away Mick. He's a sick man. I don't know that I would say anything to him. I don't know that he even deserves words. I might thank him for not killing me that night. Because he easily could have. He easily could have taken me away from my kids and my family.

I don't know. I don't know. He destroyed my life for a long time. Took away things I loved. Took away Mick. He's a sick man. I don't know that I would say anything to him. I don't know that he even deserves words. I might thank him for not killing me that night. Because he easily could have. He easily could have taken me away from my kids and my family.

And you know, he didn't just destroy part of my life. Cindy was a human. Cindy had a family. And so many times I've wished that I could talk to her family and tell them how sorry I am for the choices that I made that night. I wasn't with them. I didn't have anything to do with what happened to her other than I gave in and I gave them my keys. And I want them to know that I'm sorry I did that.

And you know, he didn't just destroy part of my life. Cindy was a human. Cindy had a family. And so many times I've wished that I could talk to her family and tell them how sorry I am for the choices that I made that night. I wasn't with them. I didn't have anything to do with what happened to her other than I gave in and I gave them my keys. And I want them to know that I'm sorry I did that.

I have lived with so much guilt over her dying for so long, almost 30 years. And I want her family to know that I'm sorry. I'm sorry that my decision to give them the keys took Cindy away from them.

I have lived with so much guilt over her dying for so long, almost 30 years. And I want her family to know that I'm sorry. I'm sorry that my decision to give them the keys took Cindy away from them.

So many people say it's not my fault, and I know that, but it does not take that guilt away. I've lived with it for so long. It's so heavy. But it does not take that guilt away. I've tried to convince myself, you had nothing to do with it. You had nothing to do with it. And so many people say that to me.

So many people say it's not my fault, and I know that, but it does not take that guilt away. I've lived with it for so long. It's so heavy. But it does not take that guilt away. I've tried to convince myself, you had nothing to do with it. You had nothing to do with it. And so many people say that to me.