Carrie

But unless you've walked in my shoes and been the person that said, go ahead, take my keys, and then this happens... then you will never understand how I feel. This will haunt me forever. I struggle with the guilt I feel over Cindy's death more than losing Mick, losing the man that I was so in love with. The fact that Cindy died weighs way heavier on me than losing Mick.

But unless you've walked in my shoes and been the person that said, go ahead, take my keys, and then this happens... then you will never understand how I feel. This will haunt me forever. I struggle with the guilt I feel over Cindy's death more than losing Mick, losing the man that I was so in love with. The fact that Cindy died weighs way heavier on me than losing Mick.

Yeah, and I hope he stays there, because I don't care how old he gets, if that man ever gets out, I'll still be afraid of him. Yeah, I put him behind bars, but a lot of fear came with that, and it's still there.

Yeah, and I hope he stays there, because I don't care how old he gets, if that man ever gets out, I'll still be afraid of him. Yeah, I put him behind bars, but a lot of fear came with that, and it's still there.

I still have nightmares that I'm found, that somebody comes to get me. I still have those nightmares. They're never gonna go away.

I still have nightmares that I'm found, that somebody comes to get me. I still have those nightmares. They're never gonna go away.

So what happens when he gets out? I'm hoping to be the one to pick him up from prison.

So what happens when he gets out? I'm hoping to be the one to pick him up from prison.

I hope that it is. I was trying to keep it together, but I just have this image in my head of what it would be like To see him after all of these years and to feel him give me a hug. The one thing that I was denied the day that he was found guilty was a hug. The bailiff told the officer that was in the room, just let him have a hug. And the officer was like, no, I can't do that.

I hope that it is. I was trying to keep it together, but I just have this image in my head of what it would be like To see him after all of these years and to feel him give me a hug. The one thing that I was denied the day that he was found guilty was a hug. The bailiff told the officer that was in the room, just let him have a hug. And the officer was like, no, I can't do that.

And I've waited a long time to get that hug. I can sit here right now and honestly say it's what I feel deep in my soul. that we were supposed to be together. This was not supposed to happen. 25 years right now has passed, and it's like time stopped in our relationship when he went to prison. Time stopped. He's not that same person that he was 25 years ago.

And I've waited a long time to get that hug. I can sit here right now and honestly say it's what I feel deep in my soul. that we were supposed to be together. This was not supposed to happen. 25 years right now has passed, and it's like time stopped in our relationship when he went to prison. Time stopped. He's not that same person that he was 25 years ago.

I'm not the same person I was 25 years ago. Do I still love him? Absolutely. He will always have a place in my heart. Always. That will never change. It will never, ever change. But I know I could not ever have a healthy relationship with him again. He's not who he was. I'm not who I was. But I would love to see his face. I would like to have a conversation with him face to face.

I'm not the same person I was 25 years ago. Do I still love him? Absolutely. He will always have a place in my heart. Always. That will never change. It will never, ever change. But I know I could not ever have a healthy relationship with him again. He's not who he was. I'm not who I was. But I would love to see his face. I would like to have a conversation with him face to face.

He's been in prison for a long time. I mean, think about everything that's happened in your life from 1995 till now. You were just a little boy. Now you're a man. So much time has passed. Time where we've had our freedom to do whatever we wanted to do or not do, where for these 25 years he's been locked up.

He's been in prison for a long time. I mean, think about everything that's happened in your life from 1995 till now. You were just a little boy. Now you're a man. So much time has passed. Time where we've had our freedom to do whatever we wanted to do or not do, where for these 25 years he's been locked up.

So many people.

So many people.

It is. When you think about every life that was changed because of one person, so many lives, my life, your life, your sister's life, Cindy's life, her family's life, her daughter's life. But I think more about Cindy's family than any other person that has been impacted by Tim. I think of her family. I mean, I really just want them to know that I'm sorry. There's nothing I can ever say.

It is. When you think about every life that was changed because of one person, so many lives, my life, your life, your sister's life, Cindy's life, her family's life, her daughter's life. But I think more about Cindy's family than any other person that has been impacted by Tim. I think of her family. I mean, I really just want them to know that I'm sorry. There's nothing I can ever say.