Chandler Hallow
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759 appearances
2 recordings
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first heard Nov 2024
last heard 17 Aug
Chandler Hallow’s voice in public audio — every appearance, attributed to the second.
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Definitely just getting approval from God.
like people around me you know like that's the cool thing to do like oh you don't drink you don't smoke or like hey we're gonna go to this party um parties involve drinking or smoking stuff like that you know right but um probably that you know just the approval of man was the ultimate thing i was looking for in that yeah i think it was like enticing you know until i was I guess doing it.
And I wanted to do it more and more.
Yeah, for sure.
yeah like i like when i'm living on my own right because i i now i'm i'm out of college i didn't go back i'm working for the company and i have enough money to live on my own so i'm just living by myself i can buy whatever i want like i'm buying drugs buying alcohol and i'm smoking all day like i don't do anything but smoke and just chill in the house and then go to work yeah and
And at night, you know, that's when the enemy will attack you when you're alone, like, at night.
And just start saying things to you in your head, like, and I would just pray, like, all the time, like, at night. But during the day, I'm living differently, right? I'm praying, like, God to, like, do something. Like, I don't want to live like this, but I continue to do it, you know?
yeah and i'm just like i don't know what to do you know i keep praying at night and then the next day i'll do the things i don't want to do damn no there's what's that the verse that says that exact thing i don't know yeah paul paul writes in romans but yeah that was doing that for like two years out of college like once i dropped out i was doing that for a good two three years
yeah definitely shame like because of the way I grew up and now I'm doing this like me not wanting to see my mom and dad because of the way I am I'm like they're gonna like be like oh my gosh what the heck is wrong with you you know like right I would not go see my parents even though we live in the same town because I was so ashamed of what I was doing dang you know
And I know it would just break my mom's heart to, like, see me like that. So I wouldn't go see them. But, yeah, that was definitely part of it. And then just guilt of what I was doing, you know, smoking, drinking, doing psychedelics, doing other drugs, you know. Yeah. You know, fornicating outside of marriage, stuff like that. Yeah. All of it. Yeah.
Dude, it's really my family praying for me for sure. Like if I didn't have people praying for me, I don't know, like, Because I had a radical encounter in my kitchen as I'm just moping around. I'm depressed. I feel alone. I'm just by myself in my house. And I hear God speak to me in my head. He goes, what are you doing? Like, clear as day.
And I, like, froze, like, because I'm just walking around in a circle, like, in my, around the island, like, the island kitchen or whatever.
And he goes, what are you doing? And I go, what am I doing? My head just freezed like that. And I look at my hands, like, I started looking at my body, like, what am I doing? You know, like, God just, like, peeled the scales off my eyes right then, like, boom. Whoa. And I was, like, just, like, shocked at myself, like, I got to stop this now. God just opened my eyes to what I was doing.
I just threw everything away right then and there. I had two giant trash bags full of paraphernalia that I just threw out. Whoa. Yeah. That was the first step, I guess, towards reconciling my relationship with God.
Well, I mean, I've had that thought of like, you know, I'm just going to finish this and then not buy more.
But like, you know, that's like. never works right yeah why I just would never do it but then like when I don't know God's just actually like stop me in my tracks like walking said what are you doing yeah well yeah
Cause I know myself, like if I try to wean off of something, it's not going to happen. I got to just struggle. I got to just go through the struggle to get free of that. Like, cause I was also like vaping, like doing like nicotine and stuff. So I was, uh, I was vaping, smoking weed, drinking, doing other drugs as well.
And, um, And the nicotine was tough, bro. Like, you can't wean off that stuff. You just got to get rid of it, like, and then struggle for how long it takes for you to not want it anymore, you know?
In my opinion, like, but that's how I did it. I just quit, like, everything.
You know? And I knew I wouldn't get through it unless I just, like, relied on God.
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