Charlotte Seaman

It's like the blood clots slightly in the needle.

So every time you're pulling back and trying to have a hit, you can't push the needle in.

So that's why there's blood everywhere because you're squirting it and it accidentally shoots out.

I've got tiny, tiny like little scars like that.

You wouldn't really see them if you didn't, you wouldn't know.

Fucking hell, really.

Now, I just, it's a lot of pain and a lot of suffering because it starts off fun, but it very quickly becomes dark, especially when you've got children.

You know, when I look back, I think I wasn't happy in my youth when I was 17, you know, because I'd had my daughter.

So I wasn't happy in myself even then.

They said I had bipolar, psychotic behaviour, but a lot of it, I think, is to do with drugs.

I'm not like that at all.

So all my kid's life's been a fucking addict.

And yeah, I just thought, I want this pain to end one way or another.

So I had a really serious attempt on my life.

It was two millimetres away from my main artery, my arm.

I don't think there was... That was a big, big moment.

But I think it was a build-up of things over the years.

There wasn't really any sort of one big thing that I just didn't use from that day.

It was like...

Tried to kill myself.