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So I've been with my partner for the past 12 years.

For context, we're late 20s.

We got married last year.

We were each other's first for everything and everything has been so great just up until the past couple of years.

From his side, everything seems perfect and he's happy for me, but I've sometimes felt like something is off.

I felt like my feelings were being overlooked and boundaries overstepped.

I'm quite an easygoing person and I think that I would just let things slide when I probably shouldn't have and that it made the boundaries difficult to set as we got older.

He's a really great and loving guy but his wits go out the window when he's drinking and I feel like he sometimes takes me for granted and just thinks that I'm always going to be there.

It really came to light for me when I would get so annoyed about the way he would treat me and then one day I just stopped caring and that's when I felt like I had checked out.

I've been working at my company for a few years now and there is a guy that I have always been friends with.

Here we go.

Always just friends as we obviously both had long-term partners and we just got on really well.

I kind of always had a bit of a crush on him, but never anything more and just thought it was because we had similar interests.

On a work night out about over a year ago, he made a comment about liking me, but he was really drunk, so I just brushed it under the carpet.

But then it got brought up again at the next party and I admitted that I liked him too.

We both spoke in the office the following week and said nothing would come out of it.

We would agree not to talk about it again and that was it.

A month passed and we couldn't stop messaging outside of work, which eventually led to sitting in each other's cars after work, even if it was just for five minutes so we could talk and eventually had a few kisses, but nothing more than this.

Fucking red hot.

We both admitted we were falling for each other badly and the tension and electricity between us, even when we were in the same room, was uncontrollable.