Chris Cella

So yeah, and lacking that structure, it made me, you know, I think it led to a sense of low self-esteem and the constant need for the approval of others. Like I look back now and I'm like, you know, why the fuck do I, did I care so much about what other people thought?

And it's, I guess, you know, I can't, you know, but after years of therapy, they've kind of pinpointed as to like, you know, your quote unquote inner child didn't get enough emotional nourishment, so to speak. And so, yeah, you know, I was so constantly trying desperately to fit in. So, you know, when I got into middle school, high school, and, you know, I was, you know, an honor roll student.

And it's, I guess, you know, I can't, you know, but after years of therapy, they've kind of pinpointed as to like, you know, your quote unquote inner child didn't get enough emotional nourishment, so to speak. And so, yeah, you know, I was so constantly trying desperately to fit in. So, you know, when I got into middle school, high school, and, you know, I was, you know, an honor roll student.

And it's, I guess, you know, I can't, you know, but after years of therapy, they've kind of pinpointed as to like, you know, your quote unquote inner child didn't get enough emotional nourishment, so to speak. And so, yeah, you know, I was so constantly trying desperately to fit in. So, you know, when I got into middle school, high school, and, you know, I was, you know, an honor roll student.

very, very, you know, I was very, you know, I have a high IQ. I was blessed with that. But once I got into like college where you actually have to start kind of trying a little bit like algebra two and whatnot, I was like, you know, because I started hanging out with kids who were smoking weed, drinking and smoking cigarettes. So,

very, very, you know, I was very, you know, I have a high IQ. I was blessed with that. But once I got into like college where you actually have to start kind of trying a little bit like algebra two and whatnot, I was like, you know, because I started hanging out with kids who were smoking weed, drinking and smoking cigarettes. So,

very, very, you know, I was very, you know, I have a high IQ. I was blessed with that. But once I got into like college where you actually have to start kind of trying a little bit like algebra two and whatnot, I was like, you know, because I started hanging out with kids who were smoking weed, drinking and smoking cigarettes. So,

Not that I necessarily wanted to smoke weed, drink and smoke cigarettes, but that's what they were doing. So I wanted, you know, I wanted their approval. I wanted to fit in. I wanted to be a part of the cool crowd. And so I started drinking, you know, smoking cigarettes and smoking weed. And so that went on for, you know, I quit the wrestling team.

Not that I necessarily wanted to smoke weed, drink and smoke cigarettes, but that's what they were doing. So I wanted, you know, I wanted their approval. I wanted to fit in. I wanted to be a part of the cool crowd. And so I started drinking, you know, smoking cigarettes and smoking weed. And so that went on for, you know, I quit the wrestling team.

Not that I necessarily wanted to smoke weed, drink and smoke cigarettes, but that's what they were doing. So I wanted, you know, I wanted their approval. I wanted to fit in. I wanted to be a part of the cool crowd. And so I started drinking, you know, smoking cigarettes and smoking weed. And so that went on for, you know, I quit the wrestling team.

I, you know, I pretty much abandoned everything that, you know, was positive, you know, all the positive things that I was doing for my life and just kind of became a stoner. And, um, and, you know, I know a lot of kids who were potheads in high school, you know, that I'm friends with that are more successful than I today. So I'm not, you know, trashing them at all.

I, you know, I pretty much abandoned everything that, you know, was positive, you know, all the positive things that I was doing for my life and just kind of became a stoner. And, um, and, you know, I know a lot of kids who were potheads in high school, you know, that I'm friends with that are more successful than I today. So I'm not, you know, trashing them at all.

I, you know, I pretty much abandoned everything that, you know, was positive, you know, all the positive things that I was doing for my life and just kind of became a stoner. And, um, and, you know, I know a lot of kids who were potheads in high school, you know, that I'm friends with that are more successful than I today. So I'm not, you know, trashing them at all.

But I mean, then what happened was it progressed to the, cause I was in, you know, advanced placement classes. So I was in like algebra two as a sophomore where, you know, I was, it was mostly juniors and seniors in the class. And so I started hanging out with the juniors and seniors and they were doing, uh, It's called oxymorphone or opana.

But I mean, then what happened was it progressed to the, cause I was in, you know, advanced placement classes. So I was in like algebra two as a sophomore where, you know, I was, it was mostly juniors and seniors in the class. And so I started hanging out with the juniors and seniors and they were doing, uh, It's called oxymorphone or opana.

But I mean, then what happened was it progressed to the, cause I was in, you know, advanced placement classes. So I was in like algebra two as a sophomore where, you know, I was, it was mostly juniors and seniors in the class. And so I started hanging out with the juniors and seniors and they were doing, uh, It's called oxymorphone or opana.

They were snorting that, taking Xanax, pills, stuff like that. And my stoner buddies... Where were they getting the pills? So they were getting them – there was pretty much – we had like one source and he was a guy that just lived down the street in an apartment complex. It's always a guy in an apartment complex, isn't it? Yeah, for sure.

They were snorting that, taking Xanax, pills, stuff like that. And my stoner buddies... Where were they getting the pills? So they were getting them – there was pretty much – we had like one source and he was a guy that just lived down the street in an apartment complex. It's always a guy in an apartment complex, isn't it? Yeah, for sure.

They were snorting that, taking Xanax, pills, stuff like that. And my stoner buddies... Where were they getting the pills? So they were getting them – there was pretty much – we had like one source and he was a guy that just lived down the street in an apartment complex. It's always a guy in an apartment complex, isn't it? Yeah, for sure.

And he – his grandmother was getting prescription – getting these prescription drugs and just had like – a boatload of them so you know he would sell them for 60 bucks a pop um and you know we would buy them uh But eventually, you know, that it becomes too expensive. The pill habit becomes too expensive. And that's why so many people transition to heroin.