Chris Fettes

But if I hesitate in a decision, dude, I've gone through this so much and I'm going to try my best here. Because I went through a whole process for years of... making sure I'm not justifying, but justifying and like going back and forth with my ego, just trying to understand this thing.

But also for so many years, I was just coping with it with addictions and drinking my face off and just being lost with that new trauma, right? And... figuring out if the decision I made was the right one because the decision I made was we're going to kill these five males, right?

But also for so many years, I was just coping with it with addictions and drinking my face off and just being lost with that new trauma, right? And... figuring out if the decision I made was the right one because the decision I made was we're going to kill these five males, right?

But also for so many years, I was just coping with it with addictions and drinking my face off and just being lost with that new trauma, right? And... figuring out if the decision I made was the right one because the decision I made was we're going to kill these five males, right?

And eliminate any risk to those assaulters because if one gets hit because I hesitated on that decision, then I know their wives. I know a bunch of them. You know, they're all around our community, you know? And... fuck, that's my job, right? So then I started to eventually separate this into a duty decision and a soul decision, right?

And eliminate any risk to those assaulters because if one gets hit because I hesitated on that decision, then I know their wives. I know a bunch of them. You know, they're all around our community, you know? And... fuck, that's my job, right? So then I started to eventually separate this into a duty decision and a soul decision, right?

And eliminate any risk to those assaulters because if one gets hit because I hesitated on that decision, then I know their wives. I know a bunch of them. You know, they're all around our community, you know? And... fuck, that's my job, right? So then I started to eventually separate this into a duty decision and a soul decision, right?

So when the breach goes off, I'm eliminating those five, and I did, right? Thinking back now, there were some things that happened outside that I, there were some loud noises, some things, some, some mistakes that I think may have spooked those guys into stomping those hostages down into a tunnel system down below.

So when the breach goes off, I'm eliminating those five, and I did, right? Thinking back now, there were some things that happened outside that I, there were some loud noises, some things, some, some mistakes that I think may have spooked those guys into stomping those hostages down into a tunnel system down below.

So when the breach goes off, I'm eliminating those five, and I did, right? Thinking back now, there were some things that happened outside that I, there were some loud noises, some things, some, some mistakes that I think may have spooked those guys into stomping those hostages down into a tunnel system down below.

Because when a couple of years later, when they got turned over that reading that he, the thing that he wrote was like, Hey, the first time, I woke up in the middle of the night to getting kicked down a fucking hidden tunnel and was like knocked out and came back to. And then as soon as I came back to, there was a loud explosion, which is the breach for what I think.

Because when a couple of years later, when they got turned over that reading that he, the thing that he wrote was like, Hey, the first time, I woke up in the middle of the night to getting kicked down a fucking hidden tunnel and was like knocked out and came back to. And then as soon as I came back to, there was a loud explosion, which is the breach for what I think.

Because when a couple of years later, when they got turned over that reading that he, the thing that he wrote was like, Hey, the first time, I woke up in the middle of the night to getting kicked down a fucking hidden tunnel and was like knocked out and came back to. And then as soon as I came back to, there was a loud explosion, which is the breach for what I think.

And so it wasn't like hours or days. It could have been seconds that we missed those guys, right? Maybe, maybe not. So the breach goes off, the assaulters come in, they get into a fight with a couple of guys, eliminate them, and we're waiting to hear that Got them, you know, in that room. The beds are still warm. There's still food from whenever before, you know, exercise bike, whatever.

And so it wasn't like hours or days. It could have been seconds that we missed those guys, right? Maybe, maybe not. So the breach goes off, the assaulters come in, they get into a fight with a couple of guys, eliminate them, and we're waiting to hear that Got them, you know, in that room. The beds are still warm. There's still food from whenever before, you know, exercise bike, whatever.

And so it wasn't like hours or days. It could have been seconds that we missed those guys, right? Maybe, maybe not. So the breach goes off, the assaulters come in, they get into a fight with a couple of guys, eliminate them, and we're waiting to hear that Got them, you know, in that room. The beds are still warm. There's still food from whenever before, you know, exercise bike, whatever.

And hey, they're not here. And that's when essentially like, okay, we're going to clear this whole village now, which we did. And we've got other compounds we're looking at to, you know, to go look at, to go do. And As I'm doing my job, hopping from roof to roof, covering my guys, I'm going like this rush of just sort of stress comes over me because now it's soul time, right?

And hey, they're not here. And that's when essentially like, okay, we're going to clear this whole village now, which we did. And we've got other compounds we're looking at to, you know, to go look at, to go do. And As I'm doing my job, hopping from roof to roof, covering my guys, I'm going like this rush of just sort of stress comes over me because now it's soul time, right?

And hey, they're not here. And that's when essentially like, okay, we're going to clear this whole village now, which we did. And we've got other compounds we're looking at to, you know, to go look at, to go do. And As I'm doing my job, hopping from roof to roof, covering my guys, I'm going like this rush of just sort of stress comes over me because now it's soul time, right?

This is what I didn't know. What I don't, what I think I didn't know, I still go through this to go, did I know? Did I not know? In that moment that two out of the five males were kids, So in the moment, it doesn't affect me too much. It's my job. You know, we wrap up that target. We get back. It's a failed hostage rescue. The team discusses like we always do.