Chris Fettes

This is what I didn't know. What I don't, what I think I didn't know, I still go through this to go, did I know? Did I not know? In that moment that two out of the five males were kids, So in the moment, it doesn't affect me too much. It's my job. You know, we wrap up that target. We get back. It's a failed hostage rescue. The team discusses like we always do.

This is what I didn't know. What I don't, what I think I didn't know, I still go through this to go, did I know? Did I not know? In that moment that two out of the five males were kids, So in the moment, it doesn't affect me too much. It's my job. You know, we wrap up that target. We get back. It's a failed hostage rescue. The team discusses like we always do.

We go, hey, anybody have any issues with everything that went down tonight? Raise your hand. No. Even the guy who I told you the platoon chief was like, man, I'm, I brought it up because I didn't, you know, hey, I don't know. I think I, you know, I know I did the right thing duty-wise, but something in here is fucking me up right now, right? And, you know, I'm good. He's like, you good?

We go, hey, anybody have any issues with everything that went down tonight? Raise your hand. No. Even the guy who I told you the platoon chief was like, man, I'm, I brought it up because I didn't, you know, hey, I don't know. I think I, you know, I know I did the right thing duty-wise, but something in here is fucking me up right now, right? And, you know, I'm good. He's like, you good?

We go, hey, anybody have any issues with everything that went down tonight? Raise your hand. No. Even the guy who I told you the platoon chief was like, man, I'm, I brought it up because I didn't, you know, hey, I don't know. I think I, you know, I know I did the right thing duty-wise, but something in here is fucking me up right now, right? And, you know, I'm good. He's like, you good?

I'm like, I'm good. But I don't know what to say. What I feel is like, hey, you did the right thing. With that, you know, when you breach in Afghanistan, it's a blind assault. There's fucking dust. Those guys' clearance was like you can't even see your hand in front of you. So imagine that, you know, feeling your way into bad guys, you know, and making sure they're not the hostage.

I'm like, I'm good. But I don't know what to say. What I feel is like, hey, you did the right thing. With that, you know, when you breach in Afghanistan, it's a blind assault. There's fucking dust. Those guys' clearance was like you can't even see your hand in front of you. So imagine that, you know, feeling your way into bad guys, you know, and making sure they're not the hostage.

I'm like, I'm good. But I don't know what to say. What I feel is like, hey, you did the right thing. With that, you know, when you breach in Afghanistan, it's a blind assault. There's fucking dust. Those guys' clearance was like you can't even see your hand in front of you. So imagine that, you know, feeling your way into bad guys, you know, and making sure they're not the hostage.

So that was that. The last I ever talked about it with anybody. Craziest thing was those guys got extended for a month to do more operations around this. Rangers get involved. Other guys get involved. And I'm like, all right, guys, I got to go start my job in a fucking week and get back in time for it. So I fly back and no shit. Like two days later, I'm up in D.C.

So that was that. The last I ever talked about it with anybody. Craziest thing was those guys got extended for a month to do more operations around this. Rangers get involved. Other guys get involved. And I'm like, all right, guys, I got to go start my job in a fucking week and get back in time for it. So I fly back and no shit. Like two days later, I'm up in D.C.

So that was that. The last I ever talked about it with anybody. Craziest thing was those guys got extended for a month to do more operations around this. Rangers get involved. Other guys get involved. And I'm like, all right, guys, I got to go start my job in a fucking week and get back in time for it. So I fly back and no shit. Like two days later, I'm up in D.C.

in this office at DITRA with a fucking suit and a tie. Thinking about these kids and just trying to figure this shit out, but not understanding how. And I'm in this fucking office. I'm supposed to be getting read-ons and badges and shit, and there's this fucking... you know, guy who's the boss or whatever, the program manager, and he's like fucking eating Twinkies and shit all over his desk.

in this office at DITRA with a fucking suit and a tie. Thinking about these kids and just trying to figure this shit out, but not understanding how. And I'm in this fucking office. I'm supposed to be getting read-ons and badges and shit, and there's this fucking... you know, guy who's the boss or whatever, the program manager, and he's like fucking eating Twinkies and shit all over his desk.

in this office at DITRA with a fucking suit and a tie. Thinking about these kids and just trying to figure this shit out, but not understanding how. And I'm in this fucking office. I'm supposed to be getting read-ons and badges and shit, and there's this fucking... you know, guy who's the boss or whatever, the program manager, and he's like fucking eating Twinkies and shit all over his desk.

And I'm like, hey, sir, what am I supposed to be, what do I need to do here? And he's like, fucking, what the, what are you talking about? Get your ass over to the fucking brief you're supposed to be in. And I'm like, okay, you know, fucking dick, you know? And then I go do my best to figure out what the fuck I'm supposed to be doing in that job the first couple of weeks, you know?

And I'm like, hey, sir, what am I supposed to be, what do I need to do here? And he's like, fucking, what the, what are you talking about? Get your ass over to the fucking brief you're supposed to be in. And I'm like, okay, you know, fucking dick, you know? And then I go do my best to figure out what the fuck I'm supposed to be doing in that job the first couple of weeks, you know?

And I'm like, hey, sir, what am I supposed to be, what do I need to do here? And he's like, fucking, what the, what are you talking about? Get your ass over to the fucking brief you're supposed to be in. And I'm like, okay, you know, fucking dick, you know? And then I go do my best to figure out what the fuck I'm supposed to be doing in that job the first couple of weeks, you know?

just feeling lost like the fuck am i you know and you know over time i got into the swing of it and it was really actually a really good experience doing that work it's just you know as i processed through this and and went through this whole phase of just these years of just fucking figuring myself out

just feeling lost like the fuck am i you know and you know over time i got into the swing of it and it was really actually a really good experience doing that work it's just you know as i processed through this and and went through this whole phase of just these years of just fucking figuring myself out

just feeling lost like the fuck am i you know and you know over time i got into the swing of it and it was really actually a really good experience doing that work it's just you know as i processed through this and and went through this whole phase of just these years of just fucking figuring myself out