Chris Williamson

I understand.

And if your brain ramps up the pain of the lesson from the last mistake that you made, you will make sure that you don't make that mistake again.

It's basically an existential psychological equivalent of I put my hand on that stove.

I'm close to this.

I got...

bit by a dog when i was five the lesson is don't go near dogs for the rest of the rest of time um that is what our brain is trying to teach us and the sort of amplitude the fucking volume of the lesson is proportional to how important we think it was and how much pain we were in at the time

And if you're in a lot of pain and then you realize that you are making the pain worse by trying to sort of whip yourself into submission so that you will be reminded you've kind of nine tails your way through this thing.

Well, yeah.

in some ways you can kind of love that part of you.

That is a good thing.

That's a really fucking cool thing to love.

Thank you so much for trying to keep me safe.

I understand that I'm fallible and fucked up and I consistently make apparently the same mistakes over and over again.

And they really have a great like fucking consecutive lineage of often being similar sorts of things.

And I get it.

You're trying to keep me safe.

Thank you.

Thank you for trying to keep me safe.

Thank you for trying to make me,

learn a lesson that my actions insist on not fucking detecting and not updating themselves from.