Ciara McGeehan

I was just really hopeful that I would continue to get positive news, that it would be good.

And yeah, for the time enough, really, Christmas Eve was brutal.

And I felt bad because I would nearly have preferred to have just gone into that appointment on my own and nobody else had to find out.

Tommy drove to Limerick.

Basically, his sister lives in Birdhill and he was spending Christmas with his family.

And he drove the whole way down to Birdhill

with that news and I feel bad because I was like oh that's not telling anybody because I don't want to make anybody else sad like he carried that Myra carried it we were sitting at Christmas and like do you know like little things like you're at the Christmas table and I'm like do I only have like one more of these Christmases after this like if I'm two years prognosis like do I get one more Christmas

Definitely not.

Definitely not.

Like I it's not like a panic, but like that, like lump in your throat.

where you're like at the dinner table and like moments where I just get like a little well in my eyes and I'm like, don't, don't cry.

Don't cry.

This is like, we're not doing this.

I'm like, Christmas was going to be hard enough for my family.

Just the fact that I was going through that.

And I'd just finished my 12 rounds.

And do you know what?

I was like, that was so tough because I was like, I am so excited to have Christmas without chemo.

Like I nearly wanted to celebrate finishing 12 rounds.

I felt like it deserved a celebration.