Ciara McGeehan

And then that news on Christmas Eve just completely scuppered that.

And then as time goes, you don't get your PET scan until a bit later.

Yeah.

medical professionals will know better than me, but they seem to need to leave a number of weeks for the effects to fully take hold so that then they can be observed.

And the PET scan is a different thing.

They pump like a radioactive glucose into your body and it attaches to fast metabolizing cells and cancer cells are

very fast metabolizing in the body and really interestingly I find it funny like you have to lie in a dark room and you're not even allowed to do anything I'd picked up my phone briefly to say to my I'm going to be a while and the nurse was like no phones because if you were using your fingers and like using your eyes it goes I was like this is fascinating so I was under I was actually and also they give you a blanket so you don't shiver because shivering is

So I was under a little tinfoil blanket you get after a marathon.

There's so many parts of this that I'm like, oh, if only I was on a tinfoil blanket because it was a marathon and not this.

But yeah, the PET scan was positive.

And like that high and low is something that...

That I was told to, interestingly, like Malachy Clerken, who did a lovely piece, me and him had some chats and he shared with me experience in his family of something similar and actually pretty early doors and it probably didn't resonate with me until I experienced it.

He was like, you're going to go between...

really high highs and really low lows and he was like if you can just find a steady middle ground throughout it all it's going to be a lot easier and it's something that really resonated with me whenever it happened I didn't know what he meant at the time but it was it's something that I definitely feel and

I've tried to find, you know, that steady middle ground and to ride those waves, but not with as many crushing emotions.

Equally, it's important to cry.

It's important to feel low and it's important to feel excited.

But like, I'm like, OK, let's have a little steady approach to it.

But yeah, it is a roller coaster, not a fun one.

Yeah, where am I now?