Cindy

A little bit later and she said, come in, I'll help you.

And she actually helped get funding as well, which was incredible.

But when I went in for the procedure, I was getting the ultrasound done and I was sort of looking out of the corner of my eye.

The nurse was staring quite intensely at the screen and I just sort of knew it was coming.

She said...

just to let you know there's multiples.

And I was like, yeah, I know.

And she said, how do you know?

Have you had an ultrasound?

I said, no, I just know.

And she said, okay, you're about seven weeks.

I dealt with a lot of guilt afterwards.

I was really struggling.

He didn't really understand.

He would just block me on all platforms after like a very minimal fight or whatever and then he would be back on the dating apps within two days.

So from then I guess that sort of set the tone for each argument that we'd have after that because it was sort of like I was always needing him to show up

And he was always needing to run away sort of thing.

When we'd argue, I would just really need to sort it out there and then and not let it linger, whereas he would like to go away for however long.

After the second termination, there was a night where I sort of had a bit of a mental breakdown because I was absolutely dealing with

every symptom of post-abortion syndrome, which I know isn't technically considered a real thing, but it exists 100%.