Clarissa Rojas

So it felt so dry. Felt like I was deserting in a dry land, the wilderness. Like, I don't know where I'm going. I'm like looking for the water. He's promising like to flow through. And I'm like, I don't know where I'm going. Um, And, um, that's kind of where I was at when the Lord humbled me because he's like, you're lost because you're not following me.

So it felt so dry. Felt like I was deserting in a dry land, the wilderness. Like, I don't know where I'm going. I'm like looking for the water. He's promising like to flow through. And I'm like, I don't know where I'm going. Um, And, um, that's kind of where I was at when the Lord humbled me because he's like, you're lost because you're not following me.

You're following what the world wants you to do and what the world's telling you to do. Cause I was going to counselors. Um, and at the time I was battling anxiety. So I was going to doctors all the time, trying to see if they can help me with my health and all that stuff. So when I was going to my counselors, how can I do school? Which way should I go seeking, seeking them and not seeking God.

You're following what the world wants you to do and what the world's telling you to do. Cause I was going to counselors. Um, and at the time I was battling anxiety. So I was going to doctors all the time, trying to see if they can help me with my health and all that stuff. So when I was going to my counselors, how can I do school? Which way should I go seeking, seeking them and not seeking God.

Yeah. at all so um that was God humbling me as well in that area and then a lot of self-humbling and we see throughout scripture ways to humble yourselves is through fasting and prayer and but also just ridding yourself of pride because I thought I had everything I needed to succeed I had my counselors I had my teachers I had finances to go to school so I was like I don't need like what like

Yeah. at all so um that was God humbling me as well in that area and then a lot of self-humbling and we see throughout scripture ways to humble yourselves is through fasting and prayer and but also just ridding yourself of pride because I thought I had everything I needed to succeed I had my counselors I had my teachers I had finances to go to school so I was like I don't need like what like

why would I go to God? Like, I already know what I'm doing. Like, you know what I'm saying? There wasn't, I wasn't aware of a need that I had. So he had to humble me to the point where he's like, you need this. Yeah. You need direction. You need wisdom. You need discernment. And so, um, my uncle at the time, cause I had struggled with a fear of choking and eating and,

why would I go to God? Like, I already know what I'm doing. Like, you know what I'm saying? There wasn't, I wasn't aware of a need that I had. So he had to humble me to the point where he's like, you need this. Yeah. You need direction. You need wisdom. You need discernment. And so, um, my uncle at the time, cause I had struggled with a fear of choking and eating and,

Can you talk a little bit more about that? Yeah. So, well, my first panic attack was in first grade in my bathtub. I fainted because I scared myself so badly to the point where I passed out. Mom didn't know what was going on. She's like, what? Like, you know.

Can you talk a little bit more about that? Yeah. So, well, my first panic attack was in first grade in my bathtub. I fainted because I scared myself so badly to the point where I passed out. Mom didn't know what was going on. She's like, what? Like, you know.

We go to the hospital and ever since first grade, all the way up until like my first semester of college, I was passing out like, I want to say like 14 times a year in and out of the hospital because I'm like passing out so much. From fear. From fear. Yeah. Like literally just from thoughts that weren't real. Yeah. Like thoughts that I'm going to die.

We go to the hospital and ever since first grade, all the way up until like my first semester of college, I was passing out like, I want to say like 14 times a year in and out of the hospital because I'm like passing out so much. From fear. From fear. Yeah. Like literally just from thoughts that weren't real. Yeah. Like thoughts that I'm going to die.

Like all fear, all intrusive thoughts, all anxiety is it's all roots to one thing and it's dying. It's death.

Like all fear, all intrusive thoughts, all anxiety is it's all roots to one thing and it's dying. It's death.

And so but I didn't know that I was in first grade. I'm like, I don't know. I don't know what's going on with me.

And so but I didn't know that I was in first grade. I'm like, I don't know. I don't know what's going on with me.

if anything my parents should have known yeah but like i'm not holding that against them because then i wouldn't have the testimony of endurance and hope that i have now if i didn't go through that yeah but um like i battled with that like anxiety fear and it got rooted deeply so bad in this one instance where i was eating a bagel and i thought i was choking i did not choke but i thought i was um

if anything my parents should have known yeah but like i'm not holding that against them because then i wouldn't have the testimony of endurance and hope that i have now if i didn't go through that yeah but um like i battled with that like anxiety fear and it got rooted deeply so bad in this one instance where i was eating a bagel and i thought i was choking i did not choke but i thought i was um

Right. And so it traumatized me so badly in my mind, like my mind fully deceived itself into thinking that I couldn't eat hard foods anymore. So for three months straight, I was just eating mashed beans, mashed potatoes, rice. But the rice had to be a little bit mushy and then protein shakes because I was like scared to eat. Yeah. And because you were scared to die. Yes. Yes.

Right. And so it traumatized me so badly in my mind, like my mind fully deceived itself into thinking that I couldn't eat hard foods anymore. So for three months straight, I was just eating mashed beans, mashed potatoes, rice. But the rice had to be a little bit mushy and then protein shakes because I was like scared to eat. Yeah. And because you were scared to die. Yes. Yes.