Clarissa Rojas

That's another instance where the Lord was humbling me. He's like, you believe your life is yours. You're afraid to die. Why? I conquered that.

That's another instance where the Lord was humbling me. He's like, you believe your life is yours. You're afraid to die. Why? I conquered that.

Right. And it's funny that it's like the whole gospel is literally a testament of how we're supposed to die. Yes, literally.

Right. And it's funny that it's like the whole gospel is literally a testament of how we're supposed to die. Yes, literally.

Yeah. Because I was like... Oh, like I am prideful because I'm leaning on my own understanding. I'm trying to control my own life when I thought I had given it to Christ. And so I'm in that season, you know, 11th grade to, you know, my freshman year of college. And the Lord was like, you didn't really give your life to me. And I was like broken. I was crushed because I was like, what do you mean?

Yeah. Because I was like... Oh, like I am prideful because I'm leaning on my own understanding. I'm trying to control my own life when I thought I had given it to Christ. And so I'm in that season, you know, 11th grade to, you know, my freshman year of college. And the Lord was like, you didn't really give your life to me. And I was like broken. I was crushed because I was like, what do you mean?

I thought I've been walking with you this whole time. And it's like, the Lord's like, it's not that you haven't been walking with me. It's that I've been with you. You just haven't really been with me. You know, it's like I've been here at the table, but you keep getting up. Yeah. Like, you know. And so that's where I kind of was.

I thought I've been walking with you this whole time. And it's like, the Lord's like, it's not that you haven't been walking with me. It's that I've been with you. You just haven't really been with me. You know, it's like I've been here at the table, but you keep getting up. Yeah. Like, you know. And so that's where I kind of was.

And because of that fear, mind you, my uncle who was helping me a lot with scripture and trying to help me with my anxiety. And it's funny because people could tell you the truth all you want. You're not going to listen to it. You're not going to listen until God really is like... You got it now. Yeah. Because he would be like, don't be afraid. Like, don't be anxious for nothing.

And because of that fear, mind you, my uncle who was helping me a lot with scripture and trying to help me with my anxiety. And it's funny because people could tell you the truth all you want. You're not going to listen to it. You're not going to listen until God really is like... You got it now. Yeah. Because he would be like, don't be afraid. Like, don't be anxious for nothing.

He's like, you know how many times he quoted that verse to me? Don't be anxious for nothing. But in everything, like... In prayer petition. Yeah. Yeah. Give it all to God. He's like, that's the key. You'll be free. And I'm like, kept reading.

He's like, you know how many times he quoted that verse to me? Don't be anxious for nothing. But in everything, like... In prayer petition. Yeah. Yeah. Give it all to God. He's like, that's the key. You'll be free. And I'm like, kept reading.

I'm like, I'm... I don't see it. I don't see it at all. Like, how do I get out of anxiety? Like, it's like one of those things. And you see even like the world talking about it and people who struggle with like...

I'm like, I'm... I don't see it. I don't see it at all. Like, how do I get out of anxiety? Like, it's like one of those things. And you see even like the world talking about it and people who struggle with like...

anxiety or depression whatever it may be and it's like they express that they're experiencing fear or that they're experiencing certain emotions and they get triggered almost when people are like oh well don't be afraid and it's like well easier said than done i want to be afraid but there is like almost an accountability that has to be taken because it's like there actually is a part of you that's comfortable with being afraid even if i were to make a bed in my fear and insecurities you would come and find me

anxiety or depression whatever it may be and it's like they express that they're experiencing fear or that they're experiencing certain emotions and they get triggered almost when people are like oh well don't be afraid and it's like well easier said than done i want to be afraid but there is like almost an accountability that has to be taken because it's like there actually is a part of you that's comfortable with being afraid even if i were to make a bed in my fear and insecurities you would come and find me

Because if God is going to find you in hell, he can definitely find me when I'm not in my right mind or when I'm stuck in fear or when I'm ashamed or insecure. Like God could do that. So it's just a matter of being okay with dying to yourself because essentially that's what Christ wants and that's what he died for.

Because if God is going to find you in hell, he can definitely find me when I'm not in my right mind or when I'm stuck in fear or when I'm ashamed or insecure. Like God could do that. So it's just a matter of being okay with dying to yourself because essentially that's what Christ wants and that's what he died for.

So... No. Yeah. The dying, the dying to self and the dying to pride is truly what rescued me because I didn't think I was prideful. I mean, I didn't even fully know what pride was. And so I was learning about humility and humility in the Hebrew means and it means to be wretched and needy. Yeah. And I was like, okay, it's a crazy word. No, yeah.

So... No. Yeah. The dying, the dying to self and the dying to pride is truly what rescued me because I didn't think I was prideful. I mean, I didn't even fully know what pride was. And so I was learning about humility and humility in the Hebrew means and it means to be wretched and needy. Yeah. And I was like, okay, it's a crazy word. No, yeah.