Clark Fredericks

So I'm just like, I'm just trying to figure it out on my own. Like, I am literally depressed to the point of being immobile. Like, all right, let's have a drink in the morning just to try to get me going. And then it was... let's just do a couple bumps during the day just to keep me energized and going. Yeah.

So I'm just like, I'm just trying to figure it out on my own. Like, I am literally depressed to the point of being immobile. Like, all right, let's have a drink in the morning just to try to get me going. And then it was... let's just do a couple bumps during the day just to keep me energized and going. Yeah.

And, and it's just, you know, spiraled and I got my pain pill addiction and, you know, I was like a squirrel gathering nuts. I'd have a drawer of 500 pain pills and still feel like, Ooh, that's only two weeks worth, you know, like, you know, we, we gotta, we gotta get, you know, more than that, you know? And, and,

And, and it's just, you know, spiraled and I got my pain pill addiction and, you know, I was like a squirrel gathering nuts. I'd have a drawer of 500 pain pills and still feel like, Ooh, that's only two weeks worth, you know, like, you know, we, we gotta, we gotta get, you know, more than that, you know? And, and,

I run out, I get low on pain pills and somebody I go to says, I don't even know why you're fucking with those pain pills to begin with. He goes, I got some packets of dope. He goes, don't kid yourself. You're, you're, you're doing dope. He goes, it's pharmaceutical dope, but it's dope.

I run out, I get low on pain pills and somebody I go to says, I don't even know why you're fucking with those pain pills to begin with. He goes, I got some packets of dope. He goes, don't kid yourself. You're, you're, you're doing dope. He goes, it's pharmaceutical dope, but it's dope.

He goes, you might as well just do the real thing for $5 a packet instead of, you know, what you're paying for pills. And I was just like, All right, bug it. Give me some packets. Unless I start doing heroin. Right. So it's just one thing after another snowballs into another. And we're picking up steam too. Things are not getting better, like I said.

He goes, you might as well just do the real thing for $5 a packet instead of, you know, what you're paying for pills. And I was just like, All right, bug it. Give me some packets. Unless I start doing heroin. Right. So it's just one thing after another snowballs into another. And we're picking up steam too. Things are not getting better, like I said.

Yeah. Yeah.

Yeah. Yeah.

Do you want a mint?

Do you want a mint?

Are we allowed to do that in a podcast?

Are we allowed to do that in a podcast?

No, I'm not thinking about it.

No, I'm not thinking about it.

Yeah. There's something driving me, though. You know, just uncomfortable. Yeah. anxious, depressed, panic attack, we got to solve that immediately. We got to get those feelings out of here. We are not going to let ourselves feel uncomfortable. I'm at the point now where one drug alone isn't enough to take away my shit.

Yeah. There's something driving me, though. You know, just uncomfortable. Yeah. anxious, depressed, panic attack, we got to solve that immediately. We got to get those feelings out of here. We are not going to let ourselves feel uncomfortable. I'm at the point now where one drug alone isn't enough to take away my shit.

No, rock bottom's coming up.

No, rock bottom's coming up.