Clark Fredericks

Because like, again, just like the gambling picks up pace and the sleeping with women picked up pace, the pills pick up pace.

So like taking three pills doesn't do a thing anymore, you know?

I'm taking, depending on what I have, if I have an Oxycontin 80,

Or I have a yellow perk 10.

I'm taking 12 to 24 pills a day.

And like I said, I could be in a complete panic with 500 pills.

And something from the abuse and having your boundaries stolen from you, boundaries were meaningless to me in my own life now.

Like, you know, you can say like,

I am comfortable living within these parameters of my life and that's how I'm gonna live.

I would say that too, but then I'd blow right through those parameters.

And one thing I swore I would never ever do is heroin.

Like that's skid roast stuff and that's Kensington Avenue stuff and that's New York City stuff.

That's not suburbs of Stillwater, New Jersey stuff.

And yet when pain pills ran out and I went to somebody and they said, dude, like, stop thinking you're better than me because you're doing pharmaceutical heroin and I'm doing actual heroin.

These are $5 a packet.

It's the same thing you're doing.

Stop fooling yourself.

And they're a lot cheaper.

And I was like, you got a point.

What's it matter?