Clark Fredericks

Come on, you can do it.

And I walked to the bathroom and that's how like every day was starting.

And not knowing what to do and just feeling like crap, instead of coffee in my travel mug to the shop, I started putting alcohol in it.

You know, either wine or champagne or vodka OJ.

And that's how I'm starting my days.

And then I'm so down at work, so depressed.

my mind says, you know, that cocaine that made us feel so great, you know, we could just do little bits of that throughout our day to give us energy and make us feel great again.

And I'm like, yeah, I'm telling myself, yeah, that's a great idea.

So I start doing, you know, just bumps of coke throughout the day.

And then I got to moderate myself so I don't get too jittery from the coke.

So I got to take Xanax.

And so that's how I start

start getting through my days and then i tweaked my back and i went and saw a doctor and he prescribed me vicodin it's first time i ever had a pain pill and that was like an instant love affair as well like i felt like i was 17 again and could just work like a maniac yeah

It worked right through the pain.

And I went through these 30 pills he gave me like, you know, pretty quick and called them back up and told them how great they worked.

And he's like, you went through those way too fast.

I'll give you 10 more and that's it.

And that just wasn't acceptable to me.

So I became like a squirrel gathering nuts for the next few years, finding pain pills and thus started a pain pill addiction.

And I could have 500 pain pills in my drawer in my room and be in panic.