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Clark Fredericks

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872 total appearances

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Camp Gagnon
I Stabbed And Killed My Childhood Abuser

And they went and had coffee and she told him her story and he shared more of his story. And he calls me up and he's like, dude, I am head over heels in love. I found the love of my life. I'm like, what? He's like, from your show. He's like, this girl reached out to me. And I'm like, didn't I tell you everything would change, bro?

Camp Gagnon
I Stabbed And Killed My Childhood Abuser

And they went and had coffee and she told him her story and he shared more of his story. And he calls me up and he's like, dude, I am head over heels in love. I found the love of my life. I'm like, what? He's like, from your show. He's like, this girl reached out to me. And I'm like, didn't I tell you everything would change, bro?

Camp Gagnon
I Stabbed And Killed My Childhood Abuser

Like you were so, you know, your mind had, he's like, you were right about everything, man. He goes, my life just completely changed since I addressed this. You know, so like, Yeah, that's awesome. It was totally rewarding, you know, like, and that's just over and over, you know, with the people I've had on that have said that.

Camp Gagnon
I Stabbed And Killed My Childhood Abuser

Like you were so, you know, your mind had, he's like, you were right about everything, man. He goes, my life just completely changed since I addressed this. You know, so like, Yeah, that's awesome. It was totally rewarding, you know, like, and that's just over and over, you know, with the people I've had on that have said that.

Camp Gagnon
I Stabbed And Killed My Childhood Abuser

Yeah, you have to. So I read this book, Man's Search for Meaning by Viktor Frankl, Holocaust survivor.

Camp Gagnon
I Stabbed And Killed My Childhood Abuser

Yeah, you have to. So I read this book, Man's Search for Meaning by Viktor Frankl, Holocaust survivor.

Camp Gagnon
I Stabbed And Killed My Childhood Abuser

Yeah. It's like every person locked up reads it.

Camp Gagnon
I Stabbed And Killed My Childhood Abuser

Yeah. It's like every person locked up reads it.

Camp Gagnon
I Stabbed And Killed My Childhood Abuser

It's big in prison. Yeah.

Camp Gagnon
I Stabbed And Killed My Childhood Abuser

It's big in prison. Yeah.

Camp Gagnon
I Stabbed And Killed My Childhood Abuser

Yeah. And, you know, in it was a line, you know, I'll paraphrase, like, when you are faced with a situation you cannot change, you have to change yourself. And I was like, wow, like my situation, I'm facing life in prison. This may not change. I'm gonna have to change myself to adapt to this. And it was just like a light bulb. And I just read it over and over and over.

Camp Gagnon
I Stabbed And Killed My Childhood Abuser

Yeah. And, you know, in it was a line, you know, I'll paraphrase, like, when you are faced with a situation you cannot change, you have to change yourself. And I was like, wow, like my situation, I'm facing life in prison. This may not change. I'm gonna have to change myself to adapt to this. And it was just like a light bulb. And I just read it over and over and over.

Camp Gagnon
I Stabbed And Killed My Childhood Abuser

And then I read the book, The Power of Now by Eckhart Tolle, which was on mindfulness. You know, I scoffed at meditation or mindfulness earlier in life. You know, like that simply wasn't going to happen. And I just started putting into effect how to take back control of my mind. He gave, you know, gave you tools to take back control of your thoughts.

Camp Gagnon
I Stabbed And Killed My Childhood Abuser

And then I read the book, The Power of Now by Eckhart Tolle, which was on mindfulness. You know, I scoffed at meditation or mindfulness earlier in life. You know, like that simply wasn't going to happen. And I just started putting into effect how to take back control of my mind. He gave, you know, gave you tools to take back control of your thoughts.

Camp Gagnon
I Stabbed And Killed My Childhood Abuser

You know, the thoughts like 24-7 when I was locked up, you know, just like... Our minds hate the present. They want to go past or forward. So it was either going back to the abuse, back to the murder, or life in prison, life in prison, back, murder. And that was it. I was just a yo-yo with those thoughts. And then I just learned to just be in the moment, practice a mantra.

Camp Gagnon
I Stabbed And Killed My Childhood Abuser

You know, the thoughts like 24-7 when I was locked up, you know, just like... Our minds hate the present. They want to go past or forward. So it was either going back to the abuse, back to the murder, or life in prison, life in prison, back, murder. And that was it. I was just a yo-yo with those thoughts. And then I just learned to just be in the moment, practice a mantra.

Camp Gagnon
I Stabbed And Killed My Childhood Abuser

When I would walk, I'd be sitting in the day room and it's just chaos in there on the day room tier. And in my mind, I'm just repeating my mantra over and over and over and over and over and over, just trying to keep my mind from going to a dark place or going to the future or just... Like, right, we're going to stay right in the present here and just, you know, be present. And I did that.

Camp Gagnon
I Stabbed And Killed My Childhood Abuser

When I would walk, I'd be sitting in the day room and it's just chaos in there on the day room tier. And in my mind, I'm just repeating my mantra over and over and over and over and over and over, just trying to keep my mind from going to a dark place or going to the future or just... Like, right, we're going to stay right in the present here and just, you know, be present. And I did that.

Camp Gagnon
I Stabbed And Killed My Childhood Abuser

I got blessed with a five-year sentence. I took a plea deal, second-degree manslaughter. The judge gave me the minimum. He apologized on the record for having to send me to prison for a single day. Gave me the minimum. I had to go to... Newark, New Jersey to Northern State Prison right by the airport there.

Camp Gagnon
I Stabbed And Killed My Childhood Abuser

I got blessed with a five-year sentence. I took a plea deal, second-degree manslaughter. The judge gave me the minimum. He apologized on the record for having to send me to prison for a single day. Gave me the minimum. I had to go to... Newark, New Jersey to Northern State Prison right by the airport there.